1. I fear of death
2. Lisa is always there for me
3. I love sushi
4. I like meeting new people
5. ALWAYS have a life
6. Sex and drugs
7. I have to shop
8. Parties. PERIOD
9. There is no need for shit that happens
10. Can/can not be patient
11. I love nailpolish
12. And makeup
13. Traveling
14. Air
15. There is a word for everything
16. I have have mixed feelings
17. Liars can go die
18. I am honest
19. Hides so much
20. Blue eyes
21. Broken train tracks
22. TRUST
23. Music is usually the only thing that gets me.
24. Ipod= sex
25. Movies
26. Has a care for a few things
27. And always with hearts
28. Manhattan
29. Secrets
30. Always there for you
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Back form florida!- Wands, Jelly Beans, Rootbeer
Im back from florida and as much as I missed being home, I miss florida to. I go to flroida A LOT. Usually 2 to 4 times a year, but I think this year was the best year ever. And thats because we went to HARRY POTTER WORLD. I fell in love with it. When it comes to magic, this is it! Wands, jelly beans, rootbeer, wizards, rollercoasters, chocolate frogs, and magic! Thats all I need. And harry potter world has it.
Anyway, to get a wand yes I admit it is a line that can be longer than 2 hours so be prepaied to wait, but it is SO worth it. You only experience once in your FREAKING life! And watching and testing the wand to see if boxes "pop". So enough said about the wands.
And the lines for the rollercoaters are not very long waits. Though, it may say 4 hours, thats not true at all. I waited for a ride that said 90 minutes, I only waited 40 minutes. Not bad at all. Plus, the rides are worth the wait. The twists and hills are the best part.
Then the movie ride. You get to actaully feel and almost be with the actors on the movie ride. Harry potter world is a deff GO and amazing! Just be prepared to spend some money!
Anyway, florida's coco beach is pretty cool. The beach is clean and the water is as well. The waves are huge and are super fun to ride!
Anyway, to get a wand yes I admit it is a line that can be longer than 2 hours so be prepaied to wait, but it is SO worth it. You only experience once in your FREAKING life! And watching and testing the wand to see if boxes "pop". So enough said about the wands.
And the lines for the rollercoaters are not very long waits. Though, it may say 4 hours, thats not true at all. I waited for a ride that said 90 minutes, I only waited 40 minutes. Not bad at all. Plus, the rides are worth the wait. The twists and hills are the best part.
Then the movie ride. You get to actaully feel and almost be with the actors on the movie ride. Harry potter world is a deff GO and amazing! Just be prepared to spend some money!
Anyway, florida's coco beach is pretty cool. The beach is clean and the water is as well. The waves are huge and are super fun to ride!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
The day I left the womb
Mother, where are you today?
You took a piece of me the day you went away.
No recollection nor the smell of your perfume;
I took a piece of you the day I left the womb.
Brother, put your needles down.
The best thing for you is to leave this awful town.
Pretty soon, you'll have kids to feed.
If you see mother, tell her I can sing.
Please don't worry, I am doing fine.
You're much to busy to even find the time.
So use your chemicals and take this to your grave;
The boys you left are men you didn't raise.
And Daddy, how are you today?
You must be proud of the boys that you have raised.
Your withered heart, and everything it's seen,
Your cuts and calloused hands, you had kids to feed.
You had kids to feed.
Please don't worry, I am doing fine.
You're much to busy, to even find the time.
So use your chemicals and take this to your grave;
The boys you left are men you didn't raise.
You took a piece of me the day you went away.
No recollection nor the smell of your perfume;
I took a piece of you the day I left the womb.
Brother, put your needles down.
The best thing for you is to leave this awful town.
Pretty soon, you'll have kids to feed.
If you see mother, tell her I can sing.
Please don't worry, I am doing fine.
You're much to busy to even find the time.
So use your chemicals and take this to your grave;
The boys you left are men you didn't raise.
And Daddy, how are you today?
You must be proud of the boys that you have raised.
Your withered heart, and everything it's seen,
Your cuts and calloused hands, you had kids to feed.
You had kids to feed.
Please don't worry, I am doing fine.
You're much to busy, to even find the time.
So use your chemicals and take this to your grave;
The boys you left are men you didn't raise.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Nothings going to change
It seems that everyone has moved on this summer and got NEW friends. And you know what so did I. But if you find a best friend you know she will be there with you 24/7 the think and thin and no fights. A true best friend doesn't try to get the most attention. And she/he is with them everyday!!!
I love you LISA, CASSIE, MIKE, TJ....and everyone one else who continues. ;D
I love you LISA, CASSIE, MIKE, TJ....and everyone one else who continues. ;D
Love always remains
there's a place I'd like to go somewhere out west,
it's not specific, and the pictures show it best.
I know there's trees I know there's sand and I know there's grass,
I know it's somewhere in the past.
There's a girl out there who's lookin for it too,
she's not sure when she'll go or exactly what she'll do.
If i am doomed am I the first on or the last?
Am I just someone from the past?
No one has to hear, the sound of people laughing at their fear, and the ocean and sun are always there, to make you happy if you're feeling scared of the darkness.
If I ever saw a ghost it'd change the way I think.
I wouldn't gasp for air if ever I did sink.
I wouldn't struggle, I'd just let it all out fast,
and then start living in the past.
If we hold the hand that rapes the hand,
and everyone can feel the hand,
and nothing's gonna change,
it could be the time we're living in,
we'll never feel so safe again,
but love always remains
it's not specific, and the pictures show it best.
I know there's trees I know there's sand and I know there's grass,
I know it's somewhere in the past.
There's a girl out there who's lookin for it too,
she's not sure when she'll go or exactly what she'll do.
If i am doomed am I the first on or the last?
Am I just someone from the past?
No one has to hear, the sound of people laughing at their fear, and the ocean and sun are always there, to make you happy if you're feeling scared of the darkness.
If I ever saw a ghost it'd change the way I think.
I wouldn't gasp for air if ever I did sink.
I wouldn't struggle, I'd just let it all out fast,
and then start living in the past.
If we hold the hand that rapes the hand,
and everyone can feel the hand,
and nothing's gonna change,
it could be the time we're living in,
we'll never feel so safe again,
but love always remains
Friday, July 16, 2010
When I think of the happiness
1. The happy have whole days, and those they choose. The unhappy have but hours, and those they lose.
2. Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy.
3. Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it.
4. Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.
5. We are who we are. We think what we think. We do what we do. No matter who tries to change that they want your happiness.
6. To be happy and to want to be happy are two different things. To be is happy all the way. To want to be is fake.
2. Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy.
3. Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it.
4. Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.
5. We are who we are. We think what we think. We do what we do. No matter who tries to change that they want your happiness.
6. To be happy and to want to be happy are two different things. To be is happy all the way. To want to be is fake.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
And thats the way everything ends
Everything has its rise and fall. Not everyone can be the best at everything. You will learn and see what it is that you are good at. And you will. Everyone has there place in the world. A book thought me this.
It's not all about love. Most of it is; to be with the one person you can live with. Thats not what I mean though. You chose your path, and you run it. Sure you may be unhappy with it but you made it that way. And sometimes you won't be able to fix that mistake so think twice before you do it. Always know that you have the same chance as everyone else. Just be smart and know how to face it. You can never escape your past, you can always put it behind you but it will never fade. It will haunt you, and it can kill you. Karma is a bitch. Remember that. You past is different from the future. Your future depends on you.
But right now I feel as if everything is going down the drain. But thats just my fault. I can't be at the top of my game always. And I am okay with that. You should be to. Don't worry if you screw up. You have to learn from your mistake.
"...But then it's not a perfect universe. You can't hang around waiting for somebody else to pull your strings. Destiny's what you make of it. You have to face whatever life throws at you. And if it throws more than you'd like, more than you think you can handle?
Well, then you have to find heroism within yourself and play out the hand you've been dealt. The universe never sets a challenge that can't be met. You just need to believe in yourself in order find the strength to face it. ..."
-Darren Shan
It's not all about love. Most of it is; to be with the one person you can live with. Thats not what I mean though. You chose your path, and you run it. Sure you may be unhappy with it but you made it that way. And sometimes you won't be able to fix that mistake so think twice before you do it. Always know that you have the same chance as everyone else. Just be smart and know how to face it. You can never escape your past, you can always put it behind you but it will never fade. It will haunt you, and it can kill you. Karma is a bitch. Remember that. You past is different from the future. Your future depends on you.
But right now I feel as if everything is going down the drain. But thats just my fault. I can't be at the top of my game always. And I am okay with that. You should be to. Don't worry if you screw up. You have to learn from your mistake.
"...But then it's not a perfect universe. You can't hang around waiting for somebody else to pull your strings. Destiny's what you make of it. You have to face whatever life throws at you. And if it throws more than you'd like, more than you think you can handle?
Well, then you have to find heroism within yourself and play out the hand you've been dealt. The universe never sets a challenge that can't be met. You just need to believe in yourself in order find the strength to face it. ..."
-Darren Shan
Thursday, July 8, 2010
What is love?
Okay so people say it's to young to fall in love. No your wrong. I gave up hope last year looking for an amazing guy. I thought the world was filled with jerks. I was wrong.
Theres this amazing guy who actually cares about me and I know he will be there through the thick and thin with me. He is nice and chill and knows his rights from wrong. Maybe he can fix my screwed up mind and get me back on track.
What is love?
Its more than a feeling
Its actual love
I cant stop thinking
Whats about to be come
Living for him
Dying to find
The one lost love
Of my life
Theres this amazing guy who actually cares about me and I know he will be there through the thick and thin with me. He is nice and chill and knows his rights from wrong. Maybe he can fix my screwed up mind and get me back on track.
What is love?
Its more than a feeling
Its actual love
I cant stop thinking
Whats about to be come
Living for him
Dying to find
The one lost love
Of my life
Thursday- Day 5
Song of the day: Memories by Kid Cudi
Motto of the day: I put my hands in the air.
Shirt color of the day: white
Motto of the day: I put my hands in the air.
Shirt color of the day: white
Wednesday- Day 4
Song of the day: Drop the world by Lil Wayne
Motto of the day:
*Cigarettes, 80 proof
*Take my picture, I'm so damn cute!
*Fake ID's, lots of cash
*Race that Benz, we go real fast
*2 a.m. and I'm still goin'
*Pour my drink, it's overflowin'!
*Take me home, rough me up
*No one's here so lets just fuck!
Shirt color of the day: yellow
Motto of the day:
*Cigarettes, 80 proof
*Take my picture, I'm so damn cute!
*Fake ID's, lots of cash
*Race that Benz, we go real fast
*2 a.m. and I'm still goin'
*Pour my drink, it's overflowin'!
*Take me home, rough me up
*No one's here so lets just fuck!
Shirt color of the day: yellow
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Tuesday- Day 3
Song of the day: No other one by Taio Cruz
Motto of the day: Show up, act right, love forever.
Shirt color of the day: White with pink yellow purple and green stripes
Motto of the day: Show up, act right, love forever.
Shirt color of the day: White with pink yellow purple and green stripes
Monday- Day 2
Song of the day: Kids by Mgmt
Motto of the day: Life is short fuck it up right
Shirt color of the day: Green
Motto of the day: Life is short fuck it up right
Shirt color of the day: Green
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Who Am I?
I don't even know who I am anymore. I can only be who I am with my friends. But NOT my parents. I don't tell them much about me. It's as if I am slowly drifting away. It's as if, I don't even know them. I stopped sitting with my family at dinner time. But it's not like we can even have dinner as a family. My dad gets home at 9 and it's summer so I only get home around 12 or 1. And Saturdays and Sundays I basically push my parents away. I don't want to do this, it just happens. It's summer and I am on this REALLY BIG diet where I only eat a big breakfast, a very small lunch, and no dinner. AND I MUST EXERCISE! But thats not the point, it's bad enough that my parents don't see me in the morning because they leave at 8 and it's summer and I am still sleeping but I am not even home when they come home from work.
Sunday- Day 1
Song of the day: Fight for you by Morgan Page
Motto of the day: Chicks before dicks
Shirt color of the day: Blue
Meeting you here, the night’s alight with midnight cheer
Our dust still unsettled, I feel the plucking of our petals
I’m drawing circles don’t you know, protect the seed that wants to grow
To a garden, pardon my territory
Be friendly but cautious, you’re gonna have to count your losses
Easily attracted, but dangerous to get distracted
I’m drawing circles don’t you know, protect the seed that wants to grow
To a garden, pardon my territory
I’d fight for you
I never knew that I could feel this way
I’m right for you
This kinda love don’t happen everyday
I’d fight for you
I didn’t wanna have to raise my voice
I’m right for you
You really leave me with no choice
So what do you want and what are you thinking?
Isn’t it about time you stuck up for me?
But what you can’t see is we’re under siege
And I only fight because I believe
Not gonna share you no
I’d fight for you
I never knew that I could feel this way
I’m right for you
This kinda love don’t happen everyday
I’d fight for you
I didn’t wanna have to raise my voice
I’m right for you
You really leave me with no choice
Motto of the day: Chicks before dicks
Shirt color of the day: Blue
Meeting you here, the night’s alight with midnight cheer
Our dust still unsettled, I feel the plucking of our petals
I’m drawing circles don’t you know, protect the seed that wants to grow
To a garden, pardon my territory
Be friendly but cautious, you’re gonna have to count your losses
Easily attracted, but dangerous to get distracted
I’m drawing circles don’t you know, protect the seed that wants to grow
To a garden, pardon my territory
I’d fight for you
I never knew that I could feel this way
I’m right for you
This kinda love don’t happen everyday
I’d fight for you
I didn’t wanna have to raise my voice
I’m right for you
You really leave me with no choice
So what do you want and what are you thinking?
Isn’t it about time you stuck up for me?
But what you can’t see is we’re under siege
And I only fight because I believe
Not gonna share you no
I’d fight for you
I never knew that I could feel this way
I’m right for you
This kinda love don’t happen everyday
I’d fight for you
I didn’t wanna have to raise my voice
I’m right for you
You really leave me with no choice
Summer 2010
OH MY GOD!!!
So summer is finally here! I know it's been a while but it doesn't matter. I am spending my summer partying, having fun, AND doing what I want to do. It's July 4th, and I've already been to 5 parties and school ended June 28th. I have already managed to spend $4000. And MOST IMPORTANT: I got my mac! Actually thats not that important. I just had to put it out there!
I'm going to make this summer a bomb. I'm spending it with friends and when I have to with my family.
ahhh sweet summer <3
So summer is finally here! I know it's been a while but it doesn't matter. I am spending my summer partying, having fun, AND doing what I want to do. It's July 4th, and I've already been to 5 parties and school ended June 28th. I have already managed to spend $4000. And MOST IMPORTANT: I got my mac! Actually thats not that important. I just had to put it out there!
I'm going to make this summer a bomb. I'm spending it with friends and when I have to with my family.
ahhh sweet summer <3
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Before I Die
Tell me you love me
before i die
close my eyes
before i cry.
Touch my lips
and make me shy
hold me tight
before goodbye.
It's a full moon night
look at the sky
tell me you love me
before i die.
Tell me you love me
before i die
please say it sweetheart
be it a lie.
before i die
close my eyes
before i cry.
Touch my lips
and make me shy
hold me tight
before goodbye.
It's a full moon night
look at the sky
tell me you love me
before i die.
Tell me you love me
before i die
please say it sweetheart
be it a lie.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Fallen Angel
If I could, take a trip, to outer space
She would be the one, I will see
When I get, to heavens gate
She would welcome me with her arms, open wide, and a smile
Will shadow me brighter than the sun
She hasn't had a fair chance, so I'll give her one
Let me tell you who she is, yeah
She's a fallen angel, sent from heaven up above
She's a fallen angel, waitin for me to love her, yeah
(Know that she's) She's a fallen angel, take your judgment off her
I know, that she's a fallen angel
You know, I should
Help her mend, her broken wings
So she can fly again
But I don't, wanna lose everything that I've gained
Turnin me a selfish man (oh)
Cause without em my heart just don't go, no more (no more)
I couldn't take the pain, from watchin her fly away
So say that you'll stay
She's mine
She's a fallen angel, (ooh) sent from heaven up above
She's a fallen angel, waitin for me to love her, yeah
(Know that she's) She's a fallen angel, so take your judgment off her
I know, that she's a fallen angel
Don't you
Baby don't you (don't you worry) worry
I'm gon help you (I'm gon help you ) fly
(I'm gon help you fly)
Just take me under yo (take me under) wings,
And we can reach the (we can reach the) sky
(we can reach the sky)
Baby don't you (don't you worry) worry,
I'm gon help you (I'm gon help you ) fly
(I'm gon help you fly)
Yo mama, don't you (take me under) worry
you gon reach the (we can reach the) sky
(we can reach the sky)
She's a...
She's a fallen angel, (hey hey) sent from heaven up above, just for me
She's a fallen angel, waitin for me to wrap my heart around her, know
(Know that she's) She's a fallen angel, makin due with all the judgment (no)
I know, that she's (yeah) a fallen angel (ooh ahh)
Baby I know
I know that they done hurt you
But I'm here
Let's take it all away
So if you let me...
You know what, just put your heart in my hands
And everything they say, I take it back
Like this...
You don't mean nothing,
I don't want ya,
I don't need ya,
Never loved ya,
You're nobody,
And 'll never make it,
You're a mistake (ooh)
She would be the one, I will see
When I get, to heavens gate
She would welcome me with her arms, open wide, and a smile
Will shadow me brighter than the sun
She hasn't had a fair chance, so I'll give her one
Let me tell you who she is, yeah
She's a fallen angel, sent from heaven up above
She's a fallen angel, waitin for me to love her, yeah
(Know that she's) She's a fallen angel, take your judgment off her
I know, that she's a fallen angel
You know, I should
Help her mend, her broken wings
So she can fly again
But I don't, wanna lose everything that I've gained
Turnin me a selfish man (oh)
Cause without em my heart just don't go, no more (no more)
I couldn't take the pain, from watchin her fly away
So say that you'll stay
She's mine
She's a fallen angel, (ooh) sent from heaven up above
She's a fallen angel, waitin for me to love her, yeah
(Know that she's) She's a fallen angel, so take your judgment off her
I know, that she's a fallen angel
Don't you
Baby don't you (don't you worry) worry
I'm gon help you (I'm gon help you ) fly
(I'm gon help you fly)
Just take me under yo (take me under) wings,
And we can reach the (we can reach the) sky
(we can reach the sky)
Baby don't you (don't you worry) worry,
I'm gon help you (I'm gon help you ) fly
(I'm gon help you fly)
Yo mama, don't you (take me under) worry
you gon reach the (we can reach the) sky
(we can reach the sky)
She's a...
She's a fallen angel, (hey hey) sent from heaven up above, just for me
She's a fallen angel, waitin for me to wrap my heart around her, know
(Know that she's) She's a fallen angel, makin due with all the judgment (no)
I know, that she's (yeah) a fallen angel (ooh ahh)
Baby I know
I know that they done hurt you
But I'm here
Let's take it all away
So if you let me...
You know what, just put your heart in my hands
And everything they say, I take it back
Like this...
You don't mean nothing,
I don't want ya,
I don't need ya,
Never loved ya,
You're nobody,
And 'll never make it,
You're a mistake (ooh)
Glow in the dark
Been thinking about this all damn day
Ohh wow
And i can't wait to see your face, hmmm oh.
My hands are dying to touch you, oh whoa,
But i ain’t got the patience to wait.
And i think itÂ’s time, that i,
Lose control, Lose control.
And in my mind,
I’m, sexual, sexual (Oh)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for us? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
To glow in the dark? (ready)
Ohh nono nooo,
Its ok to scream,
And if you need too, take a second to breathe (sssss ahh)
Hey there it is,
I can feel your legs, trembling.
You feel the sweat dripping from my chest,
And then you’re like oh oh oh, Baby don’t stop.
And i’ll be like no i wont, imma take you to the top.
[chorus]
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for us? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
To glow in the dark? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for us? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
To glow in the dark? (ready)
Ohh wow
And i can't wait to see your face, hmmm oh.
My hands are dying to touch you, oh whoa,
But i ain’t got the patience to wait.
And i think itÂ’s time, that i,
Lose control, Lose control.
And in my mind,
I’m, sexual, sexual (Oh)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for us? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
To glow in the dark? (ready)
Ohh nono nooo,
Its ok to scream,
And if you need too, take a second to breathe (sssss ahh)
Hey there it is,
I can feel your legs, trembling.
You feel the sweat dripping from my chest,
And then you’re like oh oh oh, Baby don’t stop.
And i’ll be like no i wont, imma take you to the top.
[chorus]
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for us? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
To glow in the dark? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for us? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
Are you ready for love? (ready)
Girl are you ready, (ready)
To glow in the dark? (ready)
Shhhh.
Her lip is trembling and her face is losing color. Her beautiful blue eyes are building up with tears. She catches my eye and try's to hide her feelings with a smile. But i can tell her smile is fake. The faint sound of her heartbeat calls my name. Someone once broke it and took all the pieces. I go numb.
I dont belive in true love
A LITTLE GIRL NEVER KNEW LOVE UNTIL A BOY BROKE HER HEART
dreadful heartache
breaking off
no more tomorrow
feelings like never before
over power you
no mistakes, no second chances
changing minds
with that comes tears
and pain and misery
no forgiveness
no more luck
broken memories
faded pictures
depressed, desire, death
love, lust, beautiful lies
make it worse
all alone
stuck in a white room
can't breathe
and all i can do is
suffocate
in peace
dreadful heartache
breaking off
no more tomorrow
feelings like never before
over power you
no mistakes, no second chances
changing minds
with that comes tears
and pain and misery
no forgiveness
no more luck
broken memories
faded pictures
depressed, desire, death
love, lust, beautiful lies
make it worse
all alone
stuck in a white room
can't breathe
and all i can do is
suffocate
in peace
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Staten Island
I just realized today, that living in staten island, might have been a mistake. Gosh, actually I do really LOVE this place. I can call it my home. What I mean is staten island is filled with pot heads. More than half of my school does pot. I could really careless but some are my friends, and I don't like seeing them the way they are. But you are messing up your own lives. One day you'll be SO wasted it won't be funny. I live above the influence. I don't do pot. Never will. That's a promise. Every time I go through the woods to get somewhere, I am always asked if I want some. I am like NO.
Also, I can live with the sluts. Eh, who cares about that. Honestly, whatever about them. Mind your business if they don't do anything to you.
Also, I can live with the sluts. Eh, who cares about that. Honestly, whatever about them. Mind your business if they don't do anything to you.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Dear Somebody,
Dear Somebody,
When you read this, I probably won't be where I wrote this. I am just giving up here and moving on to find my place. Moving on to meet the people I have always wanted to know. I don't care if I am going to be looked for. I don't belong at home. If my walls could talk you would know everything I went through. Everything I felt. Everything that past. You would understand why I had to move on. I was pushed to go. Everyone at home saw it coming, but never knew when. Now they know. Here I am leaving my past. My old life. My old soul. Please take care of it, and teach it the right things. My new life is moving on with my body. I will know how to care for it. I will know my right from my wrong. Maybe I will never find my place. Maybe this is stupid. Maybe I would have to find this and take back my old life. But that would be a whole new adventure finding who has this letter. Maybe I will go searching for this. If I get nowhere I might!
Please never let your parents make decisions for you. Once you turn 13/14 you have to start over powering them. But do it slowly. Part of my leaving was because I over powered. Okay, maybe I messed up and this is my fault. It probably is. I am not denying that. But now I can finally get a hold of myself. I can finally turn over a new leaf.
P.S.- You will know when I am coming to find this letter. My old soul will fill you in. I am sure.
Anyway Kisses,
ALICE
When you read this, I probably won't be where I wrote this. I am just giving up here and moving on to find my place. Moving on to meet the people I have always wanted to know. I don't care if I am going to be looked for. I don't belong at home. If my walls could talk you would know everything I went through. Everything I felt. Everything that past. You would understand why I had to move on. I was pushed to go. Everyone at home saw it coming, but never knew when. Now they know. Here I am leaving my past. My old life. My old soul. Please take care of it, and teach it the right things. My new life is moving on with my body. I will know how to care for it. I will know my right from my wrong. Maybe I will never find my place. Maybe this is stupid. Maybe I would have to find this and take back my old life. But that would be a whole new adventure finding who has this letter. Maybe I will go searching for this. If I get nowhere I might!
Please never let your parents make decisions for you. Once you turn 13/14 you have to start over powering them. But do it slowly. Part of my leaving was because I over powered. Okay, maybe I messed up and this is my fault. It probably is. I am not denying that. But now I can finally get a hold of myself. I can finally turn over a new leaf.
P.S.- You will know when I am coming to find this letter. My old soul will fill you in. I am sure.
Anyway Kisses,
ALICE
Nightmares- Freak
I am in a freak show. Everyone is circling my cage and pointing and laughing. I am just sitting in the middle of the cage with the light on me. My make-up is running down. I am being tortured. People are screaming FREAKS SHOULD BE KILLED. All I can do it watch. All the other freaks, await their turn. No one can stand it. Seeing those people laugh right at your face for being born the way you are. -GAY!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Enough
It is really hard to find the perfect guy.
I just can't explain how stupid those people are for saying "I LOVE YOU" to someone you have been going out with after a few days. I only understand if you are for real.
Drama.
I'll be celebrating tonight.
Dance with me all night.
Doesn't matter who or what.
Screw the messed up shit.
Have a nice choice of words.
CRUNCK!
Experience thrill, and anxiety.
Pop it.
Show it.
Move it.
Hoping for it to happen.
Respond.
I just can't explain how stupid those people are for saying "I LOVE YOU" to someone you have been going out with after a few days. I only understand if you are for real.
Drama.
I'll be celebrating tonight.
Dance with me all night.
Doesn't matter who or what.
Screw the messed up shit.
Have a nice choice of words.
CRUNCK!
Experience thrill, and anxiety.
Pop it.
Show it.
Move it.
Hoping for it to happen.
Respond.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Nightmares- Cut
My nightmares continue. They continue in the day. I woke up at 5 today because of my nightmares. On top I had a science exam so I tried to fall asleep. It didn't work. And then today in school I had them again. Except this time far worse.
I am walking outside at about 7 p.m. I hear a car pull up and I don't think it is for me. I casually turn and see many people dressed up in team suits pointing at me. I don't know what to think so I stand there dumbfounded. Then I remember they are out to get my for my mistakes. I have know time to do anything. Before the people run up to me, I see KID on the same sidewalk looking at me. He waves hi and I scream help me. By the time he runs up to me, the men are all around me. They grab my hands and feet and I start to scream and kick. KID runs up to them and starts to ask what is going on. KID is just as troubled as I am. KID is this guy who I like A LOT. Words can't even describe.
I am taken away to some jail and KID gets in the car. When I am put in jail I KID and I start talking, and I tell him how much I like him. Blah Blah... then I am tortured. I have to watch KID be killed in front of me.
I am walking outside at about 7 p.m. I hear a car pull up and I don't think it is for me. I casually turn and see many people dressed up in team suits pointing at me. I don't know what to think so I stand there dumbfounded. Then I remember they are out to get my for my mistakes. I have know time to do anything. Before the people run up to me, I see KID on the same sidewalk looking at me. He waves hi and I scream help me. By the time he runs up to me, the men are all around me. They grab my hands and feet and I start to scream and kick. KID runs up to them and starts to ask what is going on. KID is just as troubled as I am. KID is this guy who I like A LOT. Words can't even describe.
I am taken away to some jail and KID gets in the car. When I am put in jail I KID and I start talking, and I tell him how much I like him. Blah Blah... then I am tortured. I have to watch KID be killed in front of me.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Nightmares- No Fear
I started having nightmares. I can't go to sleep without waking up at exactly 4:45. After I wake up I can no longer go back to sleep. I lose myself. I have a fear that if I go back to sleep my dream will continue. Or worse, it could start from the beginning again. I can't control myself in my dreams. I feel every move. Everything. When I wake up I can't blink. I feel that my dreams will come true. I feel someone is in my room.
Now maybe I am losing it. Going mad, going crazy. Maybe its one of those silly, gay dreams that will go away in a few days. But I think it's a message. A message I don't quite get. A message that I need to figure out.
It's like someone took over my body. Someone who wants me gone. No name, no words, no nothing. Like I never existed. Someone who wants me dead.
My dream begins with me running. My legs are about to give out. My vision is blurred. I'd say it's somewhere in the middle of the night. I don't know where to go. I can't continue running. But I push myself. I don't know where to turn so I keep running straight. People fill my mind and now I can't breathe. I start thinking about HIM and his words to me. I keep thinking about the way HIS eyes twinkle and the way they shine. HIS smile. HIS hands. HIS heart. By this time I reach a dead end. There are no lights, but I can feel someone's presence. I can hear them breathing. I have nothing else to do, so I stop and turn around. I face my fears.
I don't get a chance to see my killer. I don't even know what they felt like. I do know that they were cold. I don't remember if there was a gun shot. Or was it a simple knife. About a few seconds after I turn, my life is taken from me. I didn't have time to scream. It only took a second. A second to take down a life.
And the I am slowly floating as if nothing happened.
As if no one ever touched me.
As if I wasn't in a nightmare.
Now maybe I am losing it. Going mad, going crazy. Maybe its one of those silly, gay dreams that will go away in a few days. But I think it's a message. A message I don't quite get. A message that I need to figure out.
It's like someone took over my body. Someone who wants me gone. No name, no words, no nothing. Like I never existed. Someone who wants me dead.
My dream begins with me running. My legs are about to give out. My vision is blurred. I'd say it's somewhere in the middle of the night. I don't know where to go. I can't continue running. But I push myself. I don't know where to turn so I keep running straight. People fill my mind and now I can't breathe. I start thinking about HIM and his words to me. I keep thinking about the way HIS eyes twinkle and the way they shine. HIS smile. HIS hands. HIS heart. By this time I reach a dead end. There are no lights, but I can feel someone's presence. I can hear them breathing. I have nothing else to do, so I stop and turn around. I face my fears.
I don't get a chance to see my killer. I don't even know what they felt like. I do know that they were cold. I don't remember if there was a gun shot. Or was it a simple knife. About a few seconds after I turn, my life is taken from me. I didn't have time to scream. It only took a second. A second to take down a life.
And the I am slowly floating as if nothing happened.
As if no one ever touched me.
As if I wasn't in a nightmare.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Sadness
Alice knows what there is to know.
Can't pretend much either.
Hides way to much from her parents.
Expresses her feelings.
Can't lie, into someone's eyes.
Feels pain.
Says music about 6 million times a day.
Has addictions.
Will fuck you up.
Wishes.
Hopes.
Dreams.
Is in love with EMINEM!!!
Can't leave, but wants to.
Has feelings beyond your imagination.
Has ******* packed into her bag.
Is ready to go.
Hates being to late.
Vacation.
Swings.
Can't do that.
Or this.
Hates to sneeze.
Likes way too many things.
Is not sleepy at all!
Has those people.
Has these people too.
Just blanked out for a minute.
Reads the wrong things.
Hears the wrong things.
Has peeves.
And wants to punch people, when they piss me off.
Can't relax when told to.
Likes shapes.
And animals.
TIGERS.
HEARTS
FUCK ALL THE ABOVE AND LEAVE THE LAST WORD:
MUSIC----- BITCHES!
Can't pretend much either.
Hides way to much from her parents.
Expresses her feelings.
Can't lie, into someone's eyes.
Feels pain.
Says music about 6 million times a day.
Has addictions.
Will fuck you up.
Wishes.
Hopes.
Dreams.
Is in love with EMINEM!!!
Can't leave, but wants to.
Has feelings beyond your imagination.
Has ******* packed into her bag.
Is ready to go.
Hates being to late.
Vacation.
Swings.
Can't do that.
Or this.
Hates to sneeze.
Likes way too many things.
Is not sleepy at all!
Has those people.
Has these people too.
Just blanked out for a minute.
Reads the wrong things.
Hears the wrong things.
Has peeves.
And wants to punch people, when they piss me off.
Can't relax when told to.
Likes shapes.
And animals.
TIGERS.
HEARTS
FUCK ALL THE ABOVE AND LEAVE THE LAST WORD:
MUSIC----- BITCHES!
Living The Moment - (Day 1)
I don't get why people make stupid decisions. I really don't. (This is just one point.) What I mean is that, people think that school is worthless, and that you get nothing from it. As much as I would LOVE to think school is worthless, it isn't. I dread waking up in the morning. I hate homework. But I suck it up, and continue on. You can have a fun life and go to school. I am getting off the topic, but anyway, it all starts in 8th grade where you try smoking or pot, or drinks, drugs, anything like that. You think it is "cool" to get high. You think that the first thing you got to do it lose your virginity. You think you need a boyfriend in 8th grade. You probably think you,ll be called a loser if you don't do this. SO you end up coping the people.
YOU ARE A LOSER WHEN YOU DO THAT.
If you can't even hand in one homework in 8th grade, when will you be able. You say you that you don't care, or you'll never need homework in life. Okay, I see where you are coming from, but can't you take out about an hour of your day. I understand failing tests, but homework, come one. Easy hundred!
DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?
Where will you get in life, if you end up not finishing high school? No where. By high school, you'll be getting high at some park. Then when you are 50 or 60 or 70 you'll realize then you made a terrible mistake.
YOU ARE A LOSER WHEN YOU DO THAT.
If you can't even hand in one homework in 8th grade, when will you be able. You say you that you don't care, or you'll never need homework in life. Okay, I see where you are coming from, but can't you take out about an hour of your day. I understand failing tests, but homework, come one. Easy hundred!
DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?
Where will you get in life, if you end up not finishing high school? No where. By high school, you'll be getting high at some park. Then when you are 50 or 60 or 70 you'll realize then you made a terrible mistake.
IDK
I really don't know anymore. My world is somehow upside down now. I can't fix it. I started shutting my mouth at the wrong times. I don't lie, and it's straight out the truth. I just can't anymore. I keep letting the wrong people down. I am getting involved in the wrong things. Everything is falling apart and I can't seem to find the pieces. I don't know what I want anymore. I can't afford to mess up others live because of mine. I need to somehow left go.
Not that my life is falling apart. I am! I am falling apart. I need to make decisions, and everyone is dropping theirs on mine. This can't go on. I am growing in a hole now. It is getting deeper and deeper. I don't know if I can pull through any longer.
I can't stop thinking about something. I would love to write THIS WORD on a paper and give it to the something.
I also stopped watching tv. I don't know why. I stopped caring for a lot of things.
1. I stopped caring, except those I care for.
2. My mistakes.
3. My anger.
I let my anger out when I need to. I scream when I need to. I do everything when I need to.
Poor kid.- Cassie, you know.
If only he knew. <3
Not that my life is falling apart. I am! I am falling apart. I need to make decisions, and everyone is dropping theirs on mine. This can't go on. I am growing in a hole now. It is getting deeper and deeper. I don't know if I can pull through any longer.
I can't stop thinking about something. I would love to write THIS WORD on a paper and give it to the something.
I also stopped watching tv. I don't know why. I stopped caring for a lot of things.
1. I stopped caring, except those I care for.
2. My mistakes.
3. My anger.
I let my anger out when I need to. I scream when I need to. I do everything when I need to.
Poor kid.- Cassie, you know.
If only he knew. <3
Monday, May 31, 2010
Not Afraid
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there
You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud's still follow's me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now
It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Put a? and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there
You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud's still follow's me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now
It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Put a? and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
Hiccup!
Oh god. I really have to rush this post. I have a huge ass party to get back too.
I love my neighborhood. They sure know how to drink. We were all dancing and grinding.. Hahaha
Everyone is drunk. No one is going to work.
My mom is a HELL of a good dancer. She went around and around. Hahaha
I love dancing. You should have seen me.
Then beer pong. Wow!!!!!
I love this memorial day.
5.31.10<333
For 2 reasons anyway. ;)
I love my neighborhood. They sure know how to drink. We were all dancing and grinding.. Hahaha
Everyone is drunk. No one is going to work.
My mom is a HELL of a good dancer. She went around and around. Hahaha
I love dancing. You should have seen me.
Then beer pong. Wow!!!!!
I love this memorial day.
5.31.10<333
For 2 reasons anyway. ;)
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
Lets get this straight:
I promised myself I would never drink. I don't want to taste the thickness of burning liquid down my throat. Gross.
Yeah well look where that got me. Yeah a place where you don't want to be. When something else takes over your mind. Those hurtful headaches. Those sick days. No movement. Pathetic!
Yeah well look where that got me. Yeah a place where you don't want to be. When something else takes over your mind. Those hurtful headaches. Those sick days. No movement. Pathetic!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Superman
Mmhh
You high baby?
Yeah
Yeah?
Ha ha ha, talk to me
You want me to tell you somethin'?
Uh huh
I know what you wanna hear
'Cuz I know you want me baby
I think I want you too
I think I love you baby
I think I love you too
I'm here to save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
I wanna grow together
Let's let our love unfurl
You know you want me baby
You know I want you too
They call me Superman
I'm here to rescue you
I wanna save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
Oh boy you drive me crazy
Bitch you make me hurl
They call me Superman
Leap tall hoes in a single bound
I'm single now got no ring on this finger now
I'll never let another chick bring me down
In a relationship, save it bitch
Babysit, you make me sick
Superman ain't savin' shit
Girl you can jump on Shady's dick
Straight from the hip, cut to the chase
I'll tell a mo'fuckin slut to her face
Play no games, say no names
Ever since I broke up with what's her face
I'm a different man, kiss my ass
Kiss my lips, bitch why ask?
Kiss my dick, hit my cash
I'd rather have you whip my ass
Don't put out? I'll put you out
Won't get out? I'll push you out
Puss blew out, poppin' shit
Wouldn't piss on fire to put you out
Am I too nice? Buy you ice
Bitch if you died, wouldn't buy you life
What you tryin' to be, my new wife?
What you Mariah? Fly through twice
But I do know one thing though
Bitches they come, they go
Saturday through Sunday Monday
Monday through Sunday yo
Maybe I'll love you one day
Maybe we'll someday grow
Till then just sit your drunk ass
On that fuckin' runway hoe
'Cuz I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Your Superman, your Superman
Don't get me wrong, I love these hoes
It's no secret everybody knows
Yeah we fucked, bitch so what?
That's about as far as your buddy goes
We'll be friends I'll call you again
I'll chase you around every bar you attend
You'll never know what kind of car I'll be in
We'll see how much you'll be partying then
You don't want that, neither do I
I don't wanna flip when I see you with guys
Too much pride between you and I
Not a jealous man, but females lie
But I guess that's just what sluts do
How could it ever be just us two?
I never loved you enough to trust you
We just met and I just fucked you
But I do know one thing though
Bitches they come they go
Saturday through Sunday Monday
Monday through Sunday yo
Maybe I'll love you one day
Maybe we'll someday grow
'Till then just sit your drunk ass
On that fuckin' runway hoe
I know you want me baby
I think I want you too
I think I love you baby
I think I love you too
I'm here to save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
I wanna grow together
Let's let our love unfurl
You know you want me baby
You know I want you too
They call me Superman
I'm here to rescue you
I wanna save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
Oh boy you drive me crazy
Bitch you make me hurl
First thing you said
I'm not phazed
I hang around big stars all day
I don't see what the big deal is anyway
You're just plain ol' Marshall to me
Ooh yeah girl run that game
Hailie Jade I love that name
Love that tattoo, what's that say?
'Rot in pieces' aww that's great
First off you don't know Marshall
At all so don't grow partial
That's ammo for my arsenal
I'll slap you off that bar stool
There goes another lawsuit
Leave handprints all across you
Good lordy-wody
You must be gone off that water bottle
You want what you can't have
Ooo girl that's too damn bad
Don't touch what you can't grab
End up with two back hands
Put Anthrax on a Tampax
And slap you till you can't stand
Girl you just blew your chance
Don't mean to ruin your plans
But I do know one thing though
Bitches they come they go
Saturday through Sunday Monday
Monday through Sunday yo
Maybe I'll love you one day
Maybe we'll someday grow
'Till then just sit your drunk ass
On that fuckin' runway hoe
I know you want me baby
I think I want you too
I think I love you baby
I think I love you too
I'm here to save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
I wanna grow together
Let's let our love unfurl
You know you want me baby
You know I want you too
They call me Superman
I'm here to rescue you
I wanna save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
Oh boy you drive me crazy
Bitch you make me hurl
'Cuz I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Your Superman, your Superman
'Cuz I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Your Superman, your Superman
You high baby?
Yeah
Yeah?
Ha ha ha, talk to me
You want me to tell you somethin'?
Uh huh
I know what you wanna hear
'Cuz I know you want me baby
I think I want you too
I think I love you baby
I think I love you too
I'm here to save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
I wanna grow together
Let's let our love unfurl
You know you want me baby
You know I want you too
They call me Superman
I'm here to rescue you
I wanna save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
Oh boy you drive me crazy
Bitch you make me hurl
They call me Superman
Leap tall hoes in a single bound
I'm single now got no ring on this finger now
I'll never let another chick bring me down
In a relationship, save it bitch
Babysit, you make me sick
Superman ain't savin' shit
Girl you can jump on Shady's dick
Straight from the hip, cut to the chase
I'll tell a mo'fuckin slut to her face
Play no games, say no names
Ever since I broke up with what's her face
I'm a different man, kiss my ass
Kiss my lips, bitch why ask?
Kiss my dick, hit my cash
I'd rather have you whip my ass
Don't put out? I'll put you out
Won't get out? I'll push you out
Puss blew out, poppin' shit
Wouldn't piss on fire to put you out
Am I too nice? Buy you ice
Bitch if you died, wouldn't buy you life
What you tryin' to be, my new wife?
What you Mariah? Fly through twice
But I do know one thing though
Bitches they come, they go
Saturday through Sunday Monday
Monday through Sunday yo
Maybe I'll love you one day
Maybe we'll someday grow
Till then just sit your drunk ass
On that fuckin' runway hoe
'Cuz I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Your Superman, your Superman
Don't get me wrong, I love these hoes
It's no secret everybody knows
Yeah we fucked, bitch so what?
That's about as far as your buddy goes
We'll be friends I'll call you again
I'll chase you around every bar you attend
You'll never know what kind of car I'll be in
We'll see how much you'll be partying then
You don't want that, neither do I
I don't wanna flip when I see you with guys
Too much pride between you and I
Not a jealous man, but females lie
But I guess that's just what sluts do
How could it ever be just us two?
I never loved you enough to trust you
We just met and I just fucked you
But I do know one thing though
Bitches they come they go
Saturday through Sunday Monday
Monday through Sunday yo
Maybe I'll love you one day
Maybe we'll someday grow
'Till then just sit your drunk ass
On that fuckin' runway hoe
I know you want me baby
I think I want you too
I think I love you baby
I think I love you too
I'm here to save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
I wanna grow together
Let's let our love unfurl
You know you want me baby
You know I want you too
They call me Superman
I'm here to rescue you
I wanna save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
Oh boy you drive me crazy
Bitch you make me hurl
First thing you said
I'm not phazed
I hang around big stars all day
I don't see what the big deal is anyway
You're just plain ol' Marshall to me
Ooh yeah girl run that game
Hailie Jade I love that name
Love that tattoo, what's that say?
'Rot in pieces' aww that's great
First off you don't know Marshall
At all so don't grow partial
That's ammo for my arsenal
I'll slap you off that bar stool
There goes another lawsuit
Leave handprints all across you
Good lordy-wody
You must be gone off that water bottle
You want what you can't have
Ooo girl that's too damn bad
Don't touch what you can't grab
End up with two back hands
Put Anthrax on a Tampax
And slap you till you can't stand
Girl you just blew your chance
Don't mean to ruin your plans
But I do know one thing though
Bitches they come they go
Saturday through Sunday Monday
Monday through Sunday yo
Maybe I'll love you one day
Maybe we'll someday grow
'Till then just sit your drunk ass
On that fuckin' runway hoe
I know you want me baby
I think I want you too
I think I love you baby
I think I love you too
I'm here to save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
I wanna grow together
Let's let our love unfurl
You know you want me baby
You know I want you too
They call me Superman
I'm here to rescue you
I wanna save you girl
Come be in Shady's world
Oh boy you drive me crazy
Bitch you make me hurl
'Cuz I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Your Superman, your Superman
'Cuz I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
I can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Can't be your Superman
Your Superman, your Superman
Just trying to get this across:
People you don't understand life at all do you.
Stop blaming others for your mistakes.
You messed up, so you fix if.
Yes you will probably never forget it.
But forgive yourself.
You piss me off, when you act so freaking stupid.
Stop blaming others for your mistakes.
You messed up, so you fix if.
Yes you will probably never forget it.
But forgive yourself.
You piss me off, when you act so freaking stupid.
I don't give a ****
When the cops aren't there:
Suck it up.
Screw you.
Choose sides.
Speak your mind.
Don't freeze.
Hands down.
Show pride.
Curse.
Run around.
Move your lips.
Got something to say.
Don't forget.
Guns and knives.
No anger.
No shame.
Please.
Get down.
Needles.
No pain.
Hoodies.
Wanna talk.
Relax.
Trouble.
Drink all the way.
Party.
Show love.
Burn it up.
Cars.
Windows rolled shown.
Chyll.
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.
Suck it up.
Screw you.
Choose sides.
Speak your mind.
Don't freeze.
Hands down.
Show pride.
Curse.
Run around.
Move your lips.
Got something to say.
Don't forget.
Guns and knives.
No anger.
No shame.
Please.
Get down.
Needles.
No pain.
Hoodies.
Wanna talk.
Relax.
Trouble.
Drink all the way.
Party.
Show love.
Burn it up.
Cars.
Windows rolled shown.
Chyll.
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.
Forget About Dre
[Dr. Dre]
Y'all know me, still the same O.G., but I been low key
Hated on by most these niggaz wit no cheese, no deals and no G's
No wheels and no keys, no boats no snowmobiles, and no ski's
Mad at me cause I can finally afford to provide my family wit groceries
Got a crib wit a studio and it's all full of tracks to add to the wall full of plaques
Hangin up in the office in back of my house like trophies
Did y'all think I'ma let my dough freeze?Hoe please
You better bow down on both knees
Who you think taught you to smoke trees?
Who you think brought you the oldies?
Eazy-E's, Ice Cube's, and D.O.C's
The Snoop D-O-double-G's and the group that said mother-"Fuck Tha Police"
Gave you a tape full of dope beats to bump when you stroll through in your hood
And when your album sales wasn't doin too good who's the Doctor they told you to go see?
Y'all better listen up closely
All you niggaz that said that I turned pop, or The Firm flopped
Y'all are the reason that Dre ain't been gettin no sleep
So FUCK Y'ALL, all of y'all; if y'all don't like me, BLOW ME!
Y'all are gonna keep fuckin around wit me and turn me back to the old me
[Eminem]
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
[Eminem]
So what do you say to somebody you hate (What?)
Or anyone tryin to bring trouble your way?
Wanna resolve things in a bloodier way? (YUP)
Then just study a tape of N.W.A.!
One day I was walkin by, wit a Walkman on, when I caught a guy give me an awkward eye (What you lookin at?)
And strangled him off in the parkin lot, wit his Karl Kani
I don't give a fuck if it's dark or not
I'm harder than me tryin to park a Dodge when I'm drunk as fuck
Right next to a humungous truck in a two-car garage {*CRUNCH*
Hoppin out wit two broken legs, tryin to walk it off
"Fuck you too bitch, call the cops!"
I'ma kill you and them loud ass motherfuckin barkin dogs
And when the cops came through me and Dre stood next to a burnt down house
Wit a can full of gas and a hand full of matches
And still weren't found out (RIGHT HERE)
From here on out it's the Chronic 2
Startin today and tomorrow's the new
And I'm still loco enough
To choke you to death wit a Charleston Chew
Slim shady - hotter then a set of twin babiesin a Mercedes Benz wit the windows up when the temp goes up to the mid 80's
Callin men ladies; sorry Doc but I been crazy
There's no way that you can save me
It's okay, go with him Hailey (Da-da?)
[Eminem]
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
[Dr. Dre]
If it was up to me, you muh'fuckers would stop comin up to mewit your hands out lookin up to me
Like you want somethin free
When my last CD was out, you wasn't bumpin me
But now that I got this little company
Everybody wanna come to me like it was some disease
But you won't get a crumb from me
Cause I'm from the streets of (Compton, Compton)
I told em all - all them little gangstas
Who you think helped mold 'em all?
Now you wanna run around talkin bout guns like I ain't got none
What you think I sold 'em all?
Cause I stay well off
Now all I get is hate mail all day sayin Dre fell off
What cause I been in the lab wit a pen and a pad tryin to get this damn label off?
I ain't havin that; this is the millenium of Aftermath
It ain't gon' be nothin after that
So give me one more platinum plaqueand fuck rap!You can have it back
So where's all the Madd Rappers at?
It's like a jungle in this habitat
But all you savage cats, know that I was strapped wit gats when you were cuddlin a Cabbage Patch
[Eminem]
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
[Eminem]
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
Y'all know me, still the same O.G., but I been low key
Hated on by most these niggaz wit no cheese, no deals and no G's
No wheels and no keys, no boats no snowmobiles, and no ski's
Mad at me cause I can finally afford to provide my family wit groceries
Got a crib wit a studio and it's all full of tracks to add to the wall full of plaques
Hangin up in the office in back of my house like trophies
Did y'all think I'ma let my dough freeze?Hoe please
You better bow down on both knees
Who you think taught you to smoke trees?
Who you think brought you the oldies?
Eazy-E's, Ice Cube's, and D.O.C's
The Snoop D-O-double-G's and the group that said mother-"Fuck Tha Police"
Gave you a tape full of dope beats to bump when you stroll through in your hood
And when your album sales wasn't doin too good who's the Doctor they told you to go see?
Y'all better listen up closely
All you niggaz that said that I turned pop, or The Firm flopped
Y'all are the reason that Dre ain't been gettin no sleep
So FUCK Y'ALL, all of y'all; if y'all don't like me, BLOW ME!
Y'all are gonna keep fuckin around wit me and turn me back to the old me
[Eminem]
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
[Eminem]
So what do you say to somebody you hate (What?)
Or anyone tryin to bring trouble your way?
Wanna resolve things in a bloodier way? (YUP)
Then just study a tape of N.W.A.!
One day I was walkin by, wit a Walkman on, when I caught a guy give me an awkward eye (What you lookin at?)
And strangled him off in the parkin lot, wit his Karl Kani
I don't give a fuck if it's dark or not
I'm harder than me tryin to park a Dodge when I'm drunk as fuck
Right next to a humungous truck in a two-car garage {*CRUNCH*
Hoppin out wit two broken legs, tryin to walk it off
"Fuck you too bitch, call the cops!"
I'ma kill you and them loud ass motherfuckin barkin dogs
And when the cops came through me and Dre stood next to a burnt down house
Wit a can full of gas and a hand full of matches
And still weren't found out (RIGHT HERE)
From here on out it's the Chronic 2
Startin today and tomorrow's the new
And I'm still loco enough
To choke you to death wit a Charleston Chew
Slim shady - hotter then a set of twin babiesin a Mercedes Benz wit the windows up when the temp goes up to the mid 80's
Callin men ladies; sorry Doc but I been crazy
There's no way that you can save me
It's okay, go with him Hailey (Da-da?)
[Eminem]
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
[Dr. Dre]
If it was up to me, you muh'fuckers would stop comin up to mewit your hands out lookin up to me
Like you want somethin free
When my last CD was out, you wasn't bumpin me
But now that I got this little company
Everybody wanna come to me like it was some disease
But you won't get a crumb from me
Cause I'm from the streets of (Compton, Compton)
I told em all - all them little gangstas
Who you think helped mold 'em all?
Now you wanna run around talkin bout guns like I ain't got none
What you think I sold 'em all?
Cause I stay well off
Now all I get is hate mail all day sayin Dre fell off
What cause I been in the lab wit a pen and a pad tryin to get this damn label off?
I ain't havin that; this is the millenium of Aftermath
It ain't gon' be nothin after that
So give me one more platinum plaqueand fuck rap!You can have it back
So where's all the Madd Rappers at?
It's like a jungle in this habitat
But all you savage cats, know that I was strapped wit gats when you were cuddlin a Cabbage Patch
[Eminem]
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
[Eminem]
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got somethin to say
But nothin comes out when they move their lips; just a bunch of gibberish
And motherfuckers act like they forgot about Dre
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
OMFG OMFG OMFG I love you cassie!- FUN FRIDAY
Today was the BOMB!!!!
I went to sixflags.
I love roller coasters.
On every ride I screamed "OMFG OMFG OMFG. I LOVE YOU CASSIE!"
I do love you cassie!
I had like 1000000 people in my group.
Fun of this week: Six flags
I went to sixflags.
I love roller coasters.
On every ride I screamed "OMFG OMFG OMFG. I LOVE YOU CASSIE!"
I do love you cassie!
I had like 1000000 people in my group.
Fun of this week: Six flags
Don't Dance- T.V. SHOW THURSDAY
This was the yesterdays. =/
Life was great yesterday.
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Vampires.
Tv show of the week: The Vampire Dairies
Life was great yesterday.
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Vampires.
Tv show of the week: The Vampire Dairies
Amazing
I know I missed some days of the week thing. But I have an excuse.
When life becomes amazing you go after it. You take in everything.
I went to sixflags today and I loved it!!!!! I live for roller coasters.
I am currently taken!
When life becomes amazing you go after it. You take in everything.
I went to sixflags today and I loved it!!!!! I live for roller coasters.
I am currently taken!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
THE 101 things
1. Define realistic goals.
2. Start now.
3. Plan, but not too much.
4. Do important things first.
5. One thing at a time.
6. Break complex goals into tasks.
7. Disconnect yourself from distractions.
8. Love what you do.
9. Learn from your failures.
10. Celebrate your successes.
11. Be early.
12. Handle small tasks immediately.
13. Batch process similar tasks.
14. Manage your time.
15. Use a planner.
16. Take notes.
17. Focus more on less.
18. Find and follow efficient patterns.
19. Learn productive shortcuts.
20. Tomorrow is today’s result.
21. Organize your space.
22. Clear clutter.
23. Be productive while you wait.
24. Automate tasks and reminders.
25. Read the manual.
26. Learn from others.
27. Teach others to help you.
28. Delegate.
29. Allocate and maximize your resources.
30. Use the right tools.
31. Work on goals every day.
32. Keep it fun.
33. Establish and maintain strong relationships.
34. Spend time with your family.
35. Take care of your health.
36. Get enough sleep.
37. Delete the unnecessary.
38. Trust your gut instincts.
39. Face your fears.
40. Solve problems.
41. Make your own decisions.
42. Take your own advice.
43. Try something new.
44. Follow your values.
45. Learn to say, “No.”
46. Spend minutes to save hours.
47. Validate your assumptions.
48. Follow and speak the truth.
49. Never cheat.
50. Never give up on yourself.
51. Small steps add up fast.
52. Be meaningful.
53. Ask questions.
54. Identify and strengthen your weaknesses.
55. Over-deliver on your promises.
56. Adapt to change.
57. Pay it forward.
58. Stay flexible.
59. Be open to new ideas.
60. Challenge yourself.
61. Be positive.
62. Disregard negative people.
63. Live below your means.
64. Listen more, speak less.
65. Think.
66. Continuously educate yourself.
67. Lead by example.
68. Always do your best.
69. Don’t settle.
70. Communicate clearly.
71. Treat everyone with respect.
72. Act when opportunities arise.
73. Quality over quantity.
74. Do the hard stuff first.
75. Set deadlines.
76. Reflect on your progress.
77. Keep track of important milestones.
78. Follow the 80-20 rule.
79. Urgent is not always important.
80. Done is better than perfect.
81. Learn skills few people know.
82. Provide tangible value.
83. Time trumps money.
84. Be yourself.
85. Find people with similar goals.
86. Reuse and recycle what works.
87. Patience is a virtue.
88. Ask yourself: “Why do this?”
89. Don’t worry about the uncontrollable.
90. Your thoughts create your reality.
91. Complaining just wastes time.
92. Excel at what you do.
93. Slow and steady.
94. Be here now.
95. Perform tasks with multiple positives.
96. View things from different angles.
97. Use your imagination.
98. Visualize your success.
99. Smile.
100. Keep it simple.
101. Finish what you start.
2. Start now.
3. Plan, but not too much.
4. Do important things first.
5. One thing at a time.
6. Break complex goals into tasks.
7. Disconnect yourself from distractions.
8. Love what you do.
9. Learn from your failures.
10. Celebrate your successes.
11. Be early.
12. Handle small tasks immediately.
13. Batch process similar tasks.
14. Manage your time.
15. Use a planner.
16. Take notes.
17. Focus more on less.
18. Find and follow efficient patterns.
19. Learn productive shortcuts.
20. Tomorrow is today’s result.
21. Organize your space.
22. Clear clutter.
23. Be productive while you wait.
24. Automate tasks and reminders.
25. Read the manual.
26. Learn from others.
27. Teach others to help you.
28. Delegate.
29. Allocate and maximize your resources.
30. Use the right tools.
31. Work on goals every day.
32. Keep it fun.
33. Establish and maintain strong relationships.
34. Spend time with your family.
35. Take care of your health.
36. Get enough sleep.
37. Delete the unnecessary.
38. Trust your gut instincts.
39. Face your fears.
40. Solve problems.
41. Make your own decisions.
42. Take your own advice.
43. Try something new.
44. Follow your values.
45. Learn to say, “No.”
46. Spend minutes to save hours.
47. Validate your assumptions.
48. Follow and speak the truth.
49. Never cheat.
50. Never give up on yourself.
51. Small steps add up fast.
52. Be meaningful.
53. Ask questions.
54. Identify and strengthen your weaknesses.
55. Over-deliver on your promises.
56. Adapt to change.
57. Pay it forward.
58. Stay flexible.
59. Be open to new ideas.
60. Challenge yourself.
61. Be positive.
62. Disregard negative people.
63. Live below your means.
64. Listen more, speak less.
65. Think.
66. Continuously educate yourself.
67. Lead by example.
68. Always do your best.
69. Don’t settle.
70. Communicate clearly.
71. Treat everyone with respect.
72. Act when opportunities arise.
73. Quality over quantity.
74. Do the hard stuff first.
75. Set deadlines.
76. Reflect on your progress.
77. Keep track of important milestones.
78. Follow the 80-20 rule.
79. Urgent is not always important.
80. Done is better than perfect.
81. Learn skills few people know.
82. Provide tangible value.
83. Time trumps money.
84. Be yourself.
85. Find people with similar goals.
86. Reuse and recycle what works.
87. Patience is a virtue.
88. Ask yourself: “Why do this?”
89. Don’t worry about the uncontrollable.
90. Your thoughts create your reality.
91. Complaining just wastes time.
92. Excel at what you do.
93. Slow and steady.
94. Be here now.
95. Perform tasks with multiple positives.
96. View things from different angles.
97. Use your imagination.
98. Visualize your success.
99. Smile.
100. Keep it simple.
101. Finish what you start.
Alert- WARZONE WEDNESDAYS
Was on the bus to see MARRY POPPINS on broadway, when I got this idea.
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On a bus.
To see a fight.
Between 2 guys.
Can it get any better?
War: On a bus with 2 guys arguing about nothing.
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On a bus.
To see a fight.
Between 2 guys.
Can it get any better?
War: On a bus with 2 guys arguing about nothing.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Pop- TAME TUESDAYS
No one outside.
Party at home.
Rock that body.
I wanna' dance in the light.
Come on.
Music.
I wanna'.
I needa'.
Hop into my car, we'll go on a ride.
All my fly babies.
Tame idea: Rain (party at home)
Party at home.
Rock that body.
I wanna' dance in the light.
Come on.
Music.
I wanna'.
I needa'.
Hop into my car, we'll go on a ride.
All my fly babies.
Tame idea: Rain (party at home)
Monday, May 17, 2010
What is life?
The hardest thing there ever is to define. My favorite quote is the first one.
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1."My momma always said life was like a box of chocolates…you never know what you're gonna get." -Forrest Gump
2. "Life is a foreign language; all men mispronounce it." -Christopher Morley
3. "Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome." -Isaac Asimov
4. "Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first." - Mark Twain
5. "We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools." -Martin Luther King, Jr.
6. "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on."
-Robert Frost
7. "All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances; And one man in his time plays many parts, His acts being seven ages. At first the infant, Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms; Then the whining school-boy, with his satchel And shining morning face, creeping like snail Unwillingly to school. And then the lover, Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier, Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard, Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel, Seeking the bubble reputation Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,In fair round belly with good capon lin'd, With eyes severe and beard of formal cut, Full of wise saws and modern instances; And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon, With spectacles on nose and pouch on side; His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice, Turning again toward childish treble, pipes And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all, That ends this strange eventful history, Is second childishness and mere oblivion; Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything." -William Shakespeare
8. "You can't escape history, or the needs and neuroses you've picked up like layers and layers of tartar on your teeth." -Charles Johnson
9. "Life... is like a box of chocolates - a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asks for, unreturnable because all you get back is another box of chocolates. So, you're stuck with mostly undefinable whipped mint crap, mindlessly wolfed down when there's nothing else to eat while you're watching the game. Sure, once is a while you get a peanut butter cup or an English toffee but it's gone too fast and the taste is fleeting. In the end, you are left with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth-shattering nuts, which, if you are desperate enough to eat, leaves nothing but an empty box of useless brown paper." -The X-Files (copiers but I guess it makes sense.)
10. "Life's like a novel with the end ripped out." -Danny Orton and Blair Daly
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1."My momma always said life was like a box of chocolates…you never know what you're gonna get." -Forrest Gump
2. "Life is a foreign language; all men mispronounce it." -Christopher Morley
3. "Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome." -Isaac Asimov
4. "Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first." - Mark Twain
5. "We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools." -Martin Luther King, Jr.
6. "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on."
-Robert Frost
7. "All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances; And one man in his time plays many parts, His acts being seven ages. At first the infant, Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms; Then the whining school-boy, with his satchel And shining morning face, creeping like snail Unwillingly to school. And then the lover, Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier, Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard, Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel, Seeking the bubble reputation Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,In fair round belly with good capon lin'd, With eyes severe and beard of formal cut, Full of wise saws and modern instances; And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon, With spectacles on nose and pouch on side; His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice, Turning again toward childish treble, pipes And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all, That ends this strange eventful history, Is second childishness and mere oblivion; Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything." -William Shakespeare
8. "You can't escape history, or the needs and neuroses you've picked up like layers and layers of tartar on your teeth." -Charles Johnson
9. "Life... is like a box of chocolates - a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asks for, unreturnable because all you get back is another box of chocolates. So, you're stuck with mostly undefinable whipped mint crap, mindlessly wolfed down when there's nothing else to eat while you're watching the game. Sure, once is a while you get a peanut butter cup or an English toffee but it's gone too fast and the taste is fleeting. In the end, you are left with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth-shattering nuts, which, if you are desperate enough to eat, leaves nothing but an empty box of useless brown paper." -The X-Files (copiers but I guess it makes sense.)
10. "Life's like a novel with the end ripped out." -Danny Orton and Blair Daly
Once
When the time comes you'll know what to think. Or do. The pain we go through and take in is helpless. Take deep breaths. Slowly breathing. There is little time left. I need the day to be longer not shorter. The stupid hate goes around. Don't copy. Yes, face it shot happens. And yes most of the time, you're in the deep shit. You'll fail. But you'll learn from your mistake. WELL, at least I hope you do. There is always something to help you. You'll learn ON your mistakes. You'll take the consequence. Nothing GOOd is easy. Not even the best chocolate cake is easy to make. When you are DONE with something, you mean it. Don't crawl back to it. You'll be desperate. Realize life once. Breath once. Try once. Let go once. You only have one chance on everything. Remember once. Your lifetime; don't mess it up to much. Party to try. Or party to do. You'll never know again. Fake nothing!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Blehhhhhh
I have the most huge craving ever. I want fried food. Yes, fried. I know, fried food is fattening but I rarely ever eat it.
I also tired fried icecream and you'd think it is gross. I though fried icecream was going to be the most nastiest thing I ever tired. Nope, I was wrong. It was amazing. I had fried vanilla. Oh, how I loved it.
Then, I tried fried brownies and I was in heaven. I am in love.
If that is enough, guess what I'll be doing this week?
I am making fried food. =)
1. Fried chicken
2. Fried onion rings
3. French fries
4. Fried mac & cheese
5. Fried Icecream
6. Fried Brownies
AMAZING!!!!
I also tired fried icecream and you'd think it is gross. I though fried icecream was going to be the most nastiest thing I ever tired. Nope, I was wrong. It was amazing. I had fried vanilla. Oh, how I loved it.
Then, I tried fried brownies and I was in heaven. I am in love.
If that is enough, guess what I'll be doing this week?
I am making fried food. =)
1. Fried chicken
2. Fried onion rings
3. French fries
4. Fried mac & cheese
5. Fried Icecream
6. Fried Brownies
AMAZING!!!!
Stranger- SUPERHERO SUNDAYS
Oh I am halfway there. Just to share. Thanks. =) Eh em, no problem. - P.S You won't get this, I am SURE,
ANYWAY-
It's Sunday.
That means:
Superhero Sundays
This weeks Superhero is: Rorschach
By the way: He is from Watchmen
ANYWAY-
It's Sunday.
That means:
Superhero Sundays
This weeks Superhero is: Rorschach
By the way: He is from Watchmen
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Complication
In a world filled with changes
each and every day..
I feel I’m being judged
for what I do n' say..
I remember back to Barbies
and play days at the park..
When I didn’t worry about
other people’s remarks..
Now lookin in the mirror
I see to my surprise..
A completely different person
staring in my eyes..
The care free little girl
I saw at 4 and 5..
Is now becoming older n'..
Just trying to survive...
each and every day..
I feel I’m being judged
for what I do n' say..
I remember back to Barbies
and play days at the park..
When I didn’t worry about
other people’s remarks..
Now lookin in the mirror
I see to my surprise..
A completely different person
staring in my eyes..
The care free little girl
I saw at 4 and 5..
Is now becoming older n'..
Just trying to survive...
Life
Life is the sum of experiences that we encounter as go through life. Day to day to struggles and triumphs are experienced by all of the world's creatures. As human beings, when we encounter a challenge, we have freedom to choose how to react. Every decision that we make leads us down another road. We will never come to exactly the same crossroads. Every decision the we make has significance. The tiniest choice that is made reverberates throughout the entire universe.
THAT SUMS IT UP!!!!
THAT SUMS IT UP!!!!
Yes. I. Know
I know I haven't wrote in a while. My fault.
I got my invisaline today.
My teeth hurt.
I will have a hollywood smile.
Plus, I didn't go to school today.
=)
Yeh, my day.
Oh, I hung out with a few people when I came home.
We were in the rain.
We went to the creek.
I loved it.
If only everyday was as easy and simple as this was.
But then again "If life was easy, where would the adventure be?"
I got my invisaline today.
My teeth hurt.
I will have a hollywood smile.
Plus, I didn't go to school today.
=)
Yeh, my day.
Oh, I hung out with a few people when I came home.
We were in the rain.
We went to the creek.
I loved it.
If only everyday was as easy and simple as this was.
But then again "If life was easy, where would the adventure be?"
Monday, May 10, 2010
If I Fall?
I really like this kid, and I don't know how to tell him. I can't even express my feelings for him. I like him A LOT. We have a lot of things in common and we talk everyday. We are really good friends. But, I can't tell him I like him. I would but I am really scared to know what he will say....
The Enemy
Oh, I don't have to apologize for not writing anything for the past days. I have a life.
My day words will start on sunday. =)
My day words will start on sunday. =)
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
If these walls could talk
If these walls could talk,
you'd know my body is dead,
my mind has been taken over,
that's why I am so scared,
I can't control it,
anger is making me blind,
I've been left here on my own
chained to a hate of some kind.
If these walls could talk.
If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those nights I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears.
You'd know about the demons
haunting me at night,
you'd be able to help me
keep my fire alight,
if these walls could talk.
If these walls could talk
they would say that it's all right,
God sends His angels
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone
it doesn't mean I'm on my own.
He watches me, from above
and showers me with all His love,
if only these walls could talk.
you'd know my body is dead,
my mind has been taken over,
that's why I am so scared,
I can't control it,
anger is making me blind,
I've been left here on my own
chained to a hate of some kind.
If these walls could talk.
If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those nights I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears.
You'd know about the demons
haunting me at night,
you'd be able to help me
keep my fire alight,
if these walls could talk.
If these walls could talk
they would say that it's all right,
God sends His angels
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone
it doesn't mean I'm on my own.
He watches me, from above
and showers me with all His love,
if only these walls could talk.
A Lesson
"I've learned a lot of lessons
In the short time I have lived
I've learned how to appreciate
And I've learned how to give.
But in these past few months
There's two I'll remember most
I've learned how to love
And I've learned to let go.
You entered my life with such a force
And left it with one as strong
And though we tried to make it last
We both knew it wouldn't be long.
I lie at night and think about
How I'm the one to blame.
If only I would have trusted you,
I could have missed this pain.
And so I spent each day of my life
With my heart in pieces
And when I thought it could never be cured,
Something happened; I expected it least.
I guess my soul was all cried out,
And it was tired of being used.
And even though I know I'm guilty,
I was tired of being accused.
And so I've learned to end this
Without an urge to cry
These are my final words to you,
"I love you and goodbye." "
In the short time I have lived
I've learned how to appreciate
And I've learned how to give.
But in these past few months
There's two I'll remember most
I've learned how to love
And I've learned to let go.
You entered my life with such a force
And left it with one as strong
And though we tried to make it last
We both knew it wouldn't be long.
I lie at night and think about
How I'm the one to blame.
If only I would have trusted you,
I could have missed this pain.
And so I spent each day of my life
With my heart in pieces
And when I thought it could never be cured,
Something happened; I expected it least.
I guess my soul was all cried out,
And it was tired of being used.
And even though I know I'm guilty,
I was tired of being accused.
And so I've learned to end this
Without an urge to cry
These are my final words to you,
"I love you and goodbye." "
The Givin
I ran away from home today
And you are on my mind
How I wish I told you
Those feelings I have had
My heart is pounding
I can't breathe
Will I be caught
Or will I be safe on the other side
The fields of golden flowers
Can't save me now
Even those beautiful roses
Or the music I cherish
I don't know where to run
Or a place to stay and hide
Should I give up and go back
Or turn myself in
Thoughts are rumbling in my head
And I cannot choose
Help me, please
I mumble in the world
I have buried myself alive
From many people I know
Don't care anymore
Don't guide any longer.
And you are on my mind
How I wish I told you
Those feelings I have had
My heart is pounding
I can't breathe
Will I be caught
Or will I be safe on the other side
The fields of golden flowers
Can't save me now
Even those beautiful roses
Or the music I cherish
I don't know where to run
Or a place to stay and hide
Should I give up and go back
Or turn myself in
Thoughts are rumbling in my head
And I cannot choose
Help me, please
I mumble in the world
I have buried myself alive
From many people I know
Don't care anymore
Don't guide any longer.
Leave it
I can't believe some people. I really can't. They don't even realize somethings they do are SO stupid.
I mean failing school is a whole issue that I don't understand. If you fail classes now, do you people know what is waiting for you in the future. I mean really. How hard can math or reading really be? Or if you can't DO math, at least do the freaking homework. It takes about 10 minutes per class. Seriously TRY IT SOMETIME. If you fail tests or just pass them, but you have give in homework your grade is boosted up. It pisses me off, because some people do this to be cool. Well then you are not. YOUR A LOSER BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER GET ANYWHERE IN LIFE. How will you get a good paying job if your grades are shit. Well honestly it is not my problem. THAT WAS YOUR CHOICE AND YOU CAN FIX IT. But sooner or later you'll realize what you want to do.
I mean failing school is a whole issue that I don't understand. If you fail classes now, do you people know what is waiting for you in the future. I mean really. How hard can math or reading really be? Or if you can't DO math, at least do the freaking homework. It takes about 10 minutes per class. Seriously TRY IT SOMETIME. If you fail tests or just pass them, but you have give in homework your grade is boosted up. It pisses me off, because some people do this to be cool. Well then you are not. YOUR A LOSER BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER GET ANYWHERE IN LIFE. How will you get a good paying job if your grades are shit. Well honestly it is not my problem. THAT WAS YOUR CHOICE AND YOU CAN FIX IT. But sooner or later you'll realize what you want to do.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Airplanes (part 2)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
(Dreamin, Im fallin, Dreamin, Im fallin)
Lets pretend like its 98, like Im eating lunch off of Styrofoam trays
Trying to be the next rapper coming out the A
Hoping for a record deal, to re-know my pain
Now lets pretend like Im on the stage
And when my beat drops everybody goes insane
And everybody know my name
And everywhere I go people wanna hear me sang
Oh yea and I just dropped my new album
On the first week I did 500 thousand
Gold in the spring and diamond in the fall
And then a world tour just to top it all off
And lets pretend like they call me the greatest
Selling out arenas with big ass stages
And everybody loved me and no one ever hated
Lets try to use imagination
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Ok, lets pretend like this never happened
Like I never had dreams of being a rapper
Like I didnt write raps in all of my classes
Like I never used to runaway into the blackness
Now lets pretend like it was all-good
Like I didnt live starring in a notebook
Like I did the things I probably knew I should
But I didnt have neighbours thats why they call it hood
Now lets pretend like I aint got a name
Before they ever called me B.o.B or a.k.a Bobby Ray
Im talking back before the mixtapes
Before the videos and the deals and the fame
Before they ever once compared me to Andre
Before I ever got Myspace
Before they ever noticed my face
So lets just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
(And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream, just memories)
Lets Pretend Marshall Mathers never picked up a pen
Lets pretend things wouldve been no different
Pretend people procrastinated had no motivation
Pretend he just made excuses that was so paper thin they could blow away wit the wind
Marshall you never gone make it, makes no sense to play the game it aint no way thatll you win
Pretend he just stand out side all day and play with his friends
Pretend he even had a friend to say was his friend
And it wasnt time to move in school no changing again
He wasnt socially awakard and just strange as a kid
He had a father and his mother wasnt crazy as shit
And he never dreamed he can ripped stadiums he just lazy as shit
Fuck a talent show in the gymnasium bitch
You wont amount to shit quit day dreaming kid
You need to get ya cranium check you thinking like an alien
It just aint realistic
Now pretend they aint just make him angry with this shit
And there was no one he could even aim when hes pissed with
And his alarm went off to wake him but he didnt make it to the rap Olympics
Left to his plane and he missed it
Hes gonna have a hard time explaining to Haley and Laney these food stamps and WIC shit
Cause he never risked shit he hoped and he wished it
But it didnt fall in his lap so he aint even hear it he pretends that
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
(Dreamin, Im fallin, Dreamin, Im fallin)
Lets pretend like its 98, like Im eating lunch off of Styrofoam trays
Trying to be the next rapper coming out the A
Hoping for a record deal, to re-know my pain
Now lets pretend like Im on the stage
And when my beat drops everybody goes insane
And everybody know my name
And everywhere I go people wanna hear me sang
Oh yea and I just dropped my new album
On the first week I did 500 thousand
Gold in the spring and diamond in the fall
And then a world tour just to top it all off
And lets pretend like they call me the greatest
Selling out arenas with big ass stages
And everybody loved me and no one ever hated
Lets try to use imagination
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Ok, lets pretend like this never happened
Like I never had dreams of being a rapper
Like I didnt write raps in all of my classes
Like I never used to runaway into the blackness
Now lets pretend like it was all-good
Like I didnt live starring in a notebook
Like I did the things I probably knew I should
But I didnt have neighbours thats why they call it hood
Now lets pretend like I aint got a name
Before they ever called me B.o.B or a.k.a Bobby Ray
Im talking back before the mixtapes
Before the videos and the deals and the fame
Before they ever once compared me to Andre
Before I ever got Myspace
Before they ever noticed my face
So lets just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
(And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream, just memories)
Lets Pretend Marshall Mathers never picked up a pen
Lets pretend things wouldve been no different
Pretend people procrastinated had no motivation
Pretend he just made excuses that was so paper thin they could blow away wit the wind
Marshall you never gone make it, makes no sense to play the game it aint no way thatll you win
Pretend he just stand out side all day and play with his friends
Pretend he even had a friend to say was his friend
And it wasnt time to move in school no changing again
He wasnt socially awakard and just strange as a kid
He had a father and his mother wasnt crazy as shit
And he never dreamed he can ripped stadiums he just lazy as shit
Fuck a talent show in the gymnasium bitch
You wont amount to shit quit day dreaming kid
You need to get ya cranium check you thinking like an alien
It just aint realistic
Now pretend they aint just make him angry with this shit
And there was no one he could even aim when hes pissed with
And his alarm went off to wake him but he didnt make it to the rap Olympics
Left to his plane and he missed it
Hes gonna have a hard time explaining to Haley and Laney these food stamps and WIC shit
Cause he never risked shit he hoped and he wished it
But it didnt fall in his lap so he aint even hear it he pretends that
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Airplanes (part 1)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin and smashin and crashin
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when youre staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But thats just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry Im late
Im on my way so dont close that gate
If I dont make that then Ill switch my flight
And Ill be right back at it by the end of the night
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job, before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank
Yeah back when I was tryin to get into the subway
And back when I was rappin for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin to stay relevant
Im guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
Then maybe yo maybe I'll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game
And back when aint nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for the Cada, whats up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this shit
So here I stand and then again I say
Im hopin we can make some wishes outta airplanes?
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin and smashin and crashin
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when youre staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But thats just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry Im late
Im on my way so dont close that gate
If I dont make that then Ill switch my flight
And Ill be right back at it by the end of the night
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job, before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank
Yeah back when I was tryin to get into the subway
And back when I was rappin for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin to stay relevant
Im guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
Then maybe yo maybe I'll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game
And back when aint nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for the Cada, whats up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this shit
So here I stand and then again I say
Im hopin we can make some wishes outta airplanes?
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Publish- Movie Mondays
Sad to the end.
Just watch it.
Get a box of tissues.
Thats it!
Movie of the week: Pearl Harbor
Just watch it.
Get a box of tissues.
Thats it!
Movie of the week: Pearl Harbor
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Dance
Call me names and I won't care.
I'll bust your ass if you piss me off.
Take a risk, but not way extreme.
Dance. Sing. Laugh.
Show respect to others.
Be proud of yourself.
No matter what it is that you did.
Don't worry to much, for other peoples problems.
Show signs of liking someone.
There will always be your day.
Cheer up. Grow up. Show up.
I'll bust your ass if you piss me off.
Take a risk, but not way extreme.
Dance. Sing. Laugh.
Show respect to others.
Be proud of yourself.
No matter what it is that you did.
Don't worry to much, for other peoples problems.
Show signs of liking someone.
There will always be your day.
Cheer up. Grow up. Show up.
Whistle- Superhero Sundays
SPIDERMAN 3.
ONE OF THE BEST MOVIES...
ALL I NEED!!
Superhero of the week: Spiderman
ONE OF THE BEST MOVIES...
ALL I NEED!!
Superhero of the week: Spiderman
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Disco
Chances are I pretty much care about 20 people in the world.
They know who they are.
My other friends are just friends.
And then there is the people who I just talk to.
But it doesn't matter who they are.
I worry about my best friends problems.
I try to help out as much as I can.
I give advice.
Backstab me, and I'll beat the LIVING SHIT out of you.
Don't talk about my friends.
I'll get you for that.
I see through me eyes
And hear through my ears.
Don't need a boyfriend to make me happy.
Boy or none, I am the way I am.
I don't change for anyone.
I wake up in the morning.
I go to sleep at night.
I think differently about things.
I will tell you the truth to your face.
IF you WANT to hear it.
If you tell on people, you know only lies.
That's the way I roll.
Right and the wrong.
You choose.
I party.
And that matters why?
I have a motto.
Would you like to know?
Then ask.
What is today?
Thursday - Vampire Diaries.
Tacos!
I know when you lie.
Very easy to tell.
No one hides a lie.
And when you lie, you do something.
Thats how I know.
I confused you there.?.!
Well, good.
And I probably have a bigger heart then most people do.
Talk to mehh.
Get to know mehh.
I have plenty people in my life.
Few more won't hurt.
Holy shit.
I was just scared.
By a bird too.
Lmfaooooo.
Talking on oovoo right now.
Ightt!!! Byes
They know who they are.
My other friends are just friends.
And then there is the people who I just talk to.
But it doesn't matter who they are.
I worry about my best friends problems.
I try to help out as much as I can.
I give advice.
Backstab me, and I'll beat the LIVING SHIT out of you.
Don't talk about my friends.
I'll get you for that.
I see through me eyes
And hear through my ears.
Don't need a boyfriend to make me happy.
Boy or none, I am the way I am.
I don't change for anyone.
I wake up in the morning.
I go to sleep at night.
I think differently about things.
I will tell you the truth to your face.
IF you WANT to hear it.
If you tell on people, you know only lies.
That's the way I roll.
Right and the wrong.
You choose.
I party.
And that matters why?
I have a motto.
Would you like to know?
Then ask.
What is today?
Thursday - Vampire Diaries.
Tacos!
I know when you lie.
Very easy to tell.
No one hides a lie.
And when you lie, you do something.
Thats how I know.
I confused you there.?.!
Well, good.
And I probably have a bigger heart then most people do.
Talk to mehh.
Get to know mehh.
I have plenty people in my life.
Few more won't hurt.
Holy shit.
I was just scared.
By a bird too.
Lmfaooooo.
Talking on oovoo right now.
Ightt!!! Byes
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Forgive
Fall seven times, get up eight.- Japanese Proverb
Forgive is a really big word. Half of this dumb world doesn't know what it means. Honestly, to forgive someone for something they did that HURT you is tough.
For those silly stupid girls and boys who never forgive their friends for going out with their ex- girlfriend or boyfriend, face it, YOU ARE STUPID.
I am talking about if you brother or sister or family member or someone real close to you dies because someone shot them. And then, while on trial the shooter apologizes, of course you will never forgive the person. You may try to forget but you will never forgive. No matter what saying like Forgive And Forget, to forgive something like that is technically impossible. Trust me, you can't really hate your family unless, your family hates you, or doesn't want you, or blames you, or abuses you. Then you have every right to be against them.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Behavior
Today, my communication arts teacher made a good point. We were talking about juvenile delinquents. Some of them come from painful pasts. For example: (this is A MADE UP STORY) John's mom left his dad and blamed John. Or John's mom died or something like this. John might be the boy who takes in everything. He starts to take his anger out on other people, and almost kills a person. This is what I mean. Mostly parents mess up their kids. But not all the time, some kids can just hang out with the wrong people and get mixed up. Other kids might have the most nicest parents but are still bugged.
I am going on a tour to a jail. I am so excited. I am going to the one on Randell's Island. I will post about that.
It kills to see people like this.
I am going on a tour to a jail. I am so excited. I am going to the one on Randell's Island. I will post about that.
It kills to see people like this.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Screw This
I have no more words. Gosh, you people don't know how to close your mouths. Don't make fun of another person. Look under your own nose. Yes, people are not perfect. Some have terrible childhoods. Some have horrible pasts. NO ONE IS PERFECT. People have parents that fight. This causes the child to get involved and down themselves. They say it is all their fault. These kids start to cut, do drugs, drink alcohol. They lose themselves. NEVER MAKE FUN OF A PERSON LIKE THIS.
Most likely, you DON'T know what the person is going through, so don't judge them. I would give anything to talk to someone with these problems and help. People like this don't deserve to be like this. I COMPLETELY understand if a child hurts themselves for a reason. If you do it to be cool, FACE IT you are an ASS. No doubt about that.
Guys it's time to realize the world is not perfect. And will never be. You are in charge of yourself. Don't let anyone stop you from reaching your goal. Prove them wrong! Achieve your dream. Make friends that are going through the same and help each other out. If you need a vacation leave everything behind for a few days. I would do it to. Take your most loved with you.
I noticed that if you try to be nice to ugly kids they are pretty mean. Yeah, now I am NEVER talking to someone like that.
Most likely, you DON'T know what the person is going through, so don't judge them. I would give anything to talk to someone with these problems and help. People like this don't deserve to be like this. I COMPLETELY understand if a child hurts themselves for a reason. If you do it to be cool, FACE IT you are an ASS. No doubt about that.
Guys it's time to realize the world is not perfect. And will never be. You are in charge of yourself. Don't let anyone stop you from reaching your goal. Prove them wrong! Achieve your dream. Make friends that are going through the same and help each other out. If you need a vacation leave everything behind for a few days. I would do it to. Take your most loved with you.
I noticed that if you try to be nice to ugly kids they are pretty mean. Yeah, now I am NEVER talking to someone like that.
Alice
Can't get her head straight.
Or out of the clouds.
Tries to be cheerful.
And not to take her anger out on other people.
Creative.
Loves technology.
And children.
Still color's and draws.
Feel's like a child.
Is mature.
Doesn't believe the world is heading for hell.
Confident.
Loud.
Very outspoken and sarcastic.
Cautious.
Know too much for my own good.
I love a good book.
Brutally honest.
Involved in school.
Have a lot of friends.
I've grown up.
I know right from wrong.
Im independent.
I know who I am, and truthfully, I only care about the opinions of people who matter. If you dont like me, you don't matter.
Loves music.
Hates people who don't know how to stick up for themselves.
And hates people who can't open their mouth.
Hates tattletales.
And people who stare.
And people who are jealous.
Loves people who know how to protect others.
Loves piercing's.
Wants to travel to every state.
Will be by your side when you need me.
Talk's to random people online.
Has a voice in the back of head.
Wants TOO much.
Asks for a lot.
Will be a great mom.
Green.
Music.
Books.
Movies.
Pretty much lost.
Hyper.
Pills.
And food.
Mostly CAKE and Chocolate.
AND SWEETS.
On a road.
Is really scared to death at this second.
Has secrets.
Not perfect.
Loves Tea.
Wants a dog.
Is getting one.
Guess what?
Chicken butt.
Laughs.
Has been told I LOVE YOU by a guy.
Told a guy I LOVE YOU.
Kissed a guy before.
Can't dance.
But likes to dance.
FML sometimes.
Knows I am special.
Will stick up for others.
Will curse you out and punch you if you say something that pisses me off.
HUGE FLIRT.
LOVES SUMMER.
AND NOVEMBER.
PLUS THE RAIN.
AND THE SUN.
Likes math.
And hugs.
And balloons.
Likes sunglasses.
Is unique.
Is tired of doing the same thing.
Still has those CHILDISH FEARS.
Tries something new everyday.
Wishes the day was longer.
Holds hands.
Can go on for millions of years.
Doesn't know where to stop.
Likes to slow dance.
Smart.
Cooks.
Screams.
Has feelings.
Alice is Alice.
Or out of the clouds.
Tries to be cheerful.
And not to take her anger out on other people.
Creative.
Loves technology.
And children.
Still color's and draws.
Feel's like a child.
Is mature.
Doesn't believe the world is heading for hell.
Confident.
Loud.
Very outspoken and sarcastic.
Cautious.
Know too much for my own good.
I love a good book.
Brutally honest.
Involved in school.
Have a lot of friends.
I've grown up.
I know right from wrong.
Im independent.
I know who I am, and truthfully, I only care about the opinions of people who matter. If you dont like me, you don't matter.
Loves music.
Hates people who don't know how to stick up for themselves.
And hates people who can't open their mouth.
Hates tattletales.
And people who stare.
And people who are jealous.
Loves people who know how to protect others.
Loves piercing's.
Wants to travel to every state.
Will be by your side when you need me.
Talk's to random people online.
Has a voice in the back of head.
Wants TOO much.
Asks for a lot.
Will be a great mom.
Green.
Music.
Books.
Movies.
Pretty much lost.
Hyper.
Pills.
And food.
Mostly CAKE and Chocolate.
AND SWEETS.
On a road.
Is really scared to death at this second.
Has secrets.
Not perfect.
Loves Tea.
Wants a dog.
Is getting one.
Guess what?
Chicken butt.
Laughs.
Has been told I LOVE YOU by a guy.
Told a guy I LOVE YOU.
Kissed a guy before.
Can't dance.
But likes to dance.
FML sometimes.
Knows I am special.
Will stick up for others.
Will curse you out and punch you if you say something that pisses me off.
HUGE FLIRT.
LOVES SUMMER.
AND NOVEMBER.
PLUS THE RAIN.
AND THE SUN.
Likes math.
And hugs.
And balloons.
Likes sunglasses.
Is unique.
Is tired of doing the same thing.
Still has those CHILDISH FEARS.
Tries something new everyday.
Wishes the day was longer.
Holds hands.
Can go on for millions of years.
Doesn't know where to stop.
Likes to slow dance.
Smart.
Cooks.
Screams.
Has feelings.
Alice is Alice.
MAIN THINGS: What I Want (In the future)
1. 4 kids
2. become a pedestrian
3. amazing/caring husband
4. get marries at 23
5. fall in love
6. be successful
7. nice house
8. publish a book
9. my own library
10. for people to stop taking my opinions
11. piercings
12. meet a few people (DUH not for you to know- look at #10)
13. go skydiving
14. tell HIM I like him
15. have an open crib night <3
2. become a pedestrian
3. amazing/caring husband
4. get marries at 23
5. fall in love
6. be successful
7. nice house
8. publish a book
9. my own library
10. for people to stop taking my opinions
11. piercings
12. meet a few people (DUH not for you to know- look at #10)
13. go skydiving
14. tell HIM I like him
15. have an open crib night <3
Real eyes. Realize. Real Lies.
Before I say anything I wrote a letter to MONDAY on my FOR PURPLE blog!
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Ugh, everything changes. People find new obsessions. New goals. New friends. New crushes. New lives. And become something that the feared of becoming. Something that they said they would never ever be/do. Please keep your word for what you say.
Thats that. It's just some people say I'll never touch a cigarette in my life. Now they are somewhere is a hospital crying because they found out they have lung cancer. Some news for them: Did you expect to have nine lives?
Not that this has ever happened to me or my friends, just warning you. CHANGING is one issue I look deeply into. Once you dare yourself the privilege of a hardcore badass gang, or do something they said would be SOOOOOOOO cool, you are most likely to do it again. AND FROM THEN ON YOU are SCREWED. "She tried to killers Get none Baby, your just to jaded now....." --- lyrics from one of my favorite songs. Matches. Yes it does. I likes it!!!!
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Ugh, everything changes. People find new obsessions. New goals. New friends. New crushes. New lives. And become something that the feared of becoming. Something that they said they would never ever be/do. Please keep your word for what you say.
Thats that. It's just some people say I'll never touch a cigarette in my life. Now they are somewhere is a hospital crying because they found out they have lung cancer. Some news for them: Did you expect to have nine lives?
Not that this has ever happened to me or my friends, just warning you. CHANGING is one issue I look deeply into. Once you dare yourself the privilege of a hardcore badass gang, or do something they said would be SOOOOOOOO cool, you are most likely to do it again. AND FROM THEN ON YOU are SCREWED. "She tried to killers Get none Baby, your just to jaded now....." --- lyrics from one of my favorite songs. Matches. Yes it does. I likes it!!!!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
How I Spent Money!
I recently came back from a few stores. My dad gave me 200 to go to the mall with my friends. I ended up spending it all, on 5 pairs of shoes and clothes. Later my dad picked me up and said we need to go to best buy. NOW BOTH MY DAD AND I LOVE MUSIC. I didn't know why we needed to go but, I went anyway. We spent over 2 hours looking for music. At first my dad said that I could only spent 50 bucks and he gets to spent 50. I was like okay. Yeah, we ended up spending about 200 on music. We bought so MANY CD'S. Yeah, any that I wanted and any he wanted. I love my daddy! =)
Friday, April 23, 2010
Music
❒Single ❒Taken ✔Pimpin
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Music is my life.
Music is me.
Music is adventure.
Music is happiness.
Music is cool.
Music is amazing.
Music is mine.
Music is the best.
Music loves me.
Music never brings me down.
Music cheers up my day.
Music has it's ups.
Music plays everyday.
I LOVE music!!!
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Music is my life.
Music is me.
Music is adventure.
Music is happiness.
Music is cool.
Music is amazing.
Music is mine.
Music is the best.
Music loves me.
Music never brings me down.
Music cheers up my day.
Music has it's ups.
Music plays everyday.
I LOVE music!!!
A Long Lost Story
THIS IS SOMETHING I WROTE!!!! and I'm proud about that!
The cut on my wrist must show you the evidence.
The evidence of the pain I go through.
I don't know anything anymore.
It's fading.
Swirling me around.
I see the next day in my dream.
So hard to explain.
The images.
The sounds.
The words.
Numb.
Can't take the pain of the cold metal on my skin.
I press harder.
Goes in deeper.
Right into my main artery.
Blood seeps out.
I start to laugh.
I start to dance.
Pain.
Gone.
Crashing.
I see the ocean waves.
I start to slow.
The waves grow blurry.
I get scared.
I see a light.
Truth.
Around the light is black.
I start faltering.
My knees give out.
I start to fall.
I hear children playing.
I giggle.
I lose my full balance.
I feel the cold floor.
My eyes close.
I smile.
I am in my place.
I let go of this place.
Not my home.
But I grab the light.
And I'm off on my adventure!
The cut on my wrist must show you the evidence.
The evidence of the pain I go through.
I don't know anything anymore.
It's fading.
Swirling me around.
I see the next day in my dream.
So hard to explain.
The images.
The sounds.
The words.
Numb.
Can't take the pain of the cold metal on my skin.
I press harder.
Goes in deeper.
Right into my main artery.
Blood seeps out.
I start to laugh.
I start to dance.
Pain.
Gone.
Crashing.
I see the ocean waves.
I start to slow.
The waves grow blurry.
I get scared.
I see a light.
Truth.
Around the light is black.
I start faltering.
My knees give out.
I start to fall.
I hear children playing.
I giggle.
I lose my full balance.
I feel the cold floor.
My eyes close.
I smile.
I am in my place.
I let go of this place.
Not my home.
But I grab the light.
And I'm off on my adventure!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
My LIFE in a story
Chances are that, I am one of a kind.
Always smile's when I see the right person.
Cry's over mistakes.
Cry's over movies.
And tv shows.
And sad and happy things.
Over mostly everything that is worth crying for.
Screw that, I cry over pretty much everything except guys.
Why would I do that?
Cause I am pimping.
Riding Solo.
Hell YEAH.
So, I'll be there with you.
Amazing right.
Posts blogs.
And has a CRAZY thing for HOT bad ass's.
Yes you know who you are.
I like cake. A lot.
I just sneezed. - Bless me. =P
Thanks for the bless.
I <3 people.
And will always.
I AM A PROUD SUPPORTER OF THE GAY'S, LESBO'S, AND DRAG'S AND TRANSVESTITES.
THERE IS NO RESAON TO HATE THEM.
Life is funny.
Not all the time.
Be prepared for the worst and the best.
Be the best and the boss. Life is short.
Do things you will always be proud of.
Don't let anyone stop you.
Don't hate. Create.
I think in a different way then you, so don't copy me. I'll HATE U!!!!!
Have a personality and don't be scared.
I'll tell you the truth of what I think of you! I am not terrified.
Who Cares?
I Do!
I said the 2 words.
AND GUESS WHAT THAT MEANS..........
EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!
Always smile's when I see the right person.
Cry's over mistakes.
Cry's over movies.
And tv shows.
And sad and happy things.
Over mostly everything that is worth crying for.
Screw that, I cry over pretty much everything except guys.
Why would I do that?
Cause I am pimping.
Riding Solo.
Hell YEAH.
So, I'll be there with you.
Amazing right.
Posts blogs.
And has a CRAZY thing for HOT bad ass's.
Yes you know who you are.
I like cake. A lot.
I just sneezed. - Bless me. =P
Thanks for the bless.
I <3 people.
And will always.
I AM A PROUD SUPPORTER OF THE GAY'S, LESBO'S, AND DRAG'S AND TRANSVESTITES.
THERE IS NO RESAON TO HATE THEM.
Life is funny.
Not all the time.
Be prepared for the worst and the best.
Be the best and the boss. Life is short.
Do things you will always be proud of.
Don't let anyone stop you.
Don't hate. Create.
I think in a different way then you, so don't copy me. I'll HATE U!!!!!
Have a personality and don't be scared.
I'll tell you the truth of what I think of you! I am not terrified.
Who Cares?
I Do!
I said the 2 words.
AND GUESS WHAT THAT MEANS..........
EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!
Life or None? =/
I can't find anything that interests me anymore. Ugh, that is sad. =(
I used to read SO much and now I barely have any time to do so. I don't know if I have a life? I don't even know what I do when I come home from school. This sucks.
I used to watch tv shows and movies yeah, I kinda stopped watching movies online and there are just TOO many movies I want to watch so that is gone.
I liked cooking and baking and I still do that except I use everything up so my mom refuses to go out and buy things.
I guess I am only left with my blog then. Don't get me wrong I do hang out with friends but not as much as I used too. Its summer soon and their sports have started so there go out plans.
The again, I always have my music. Music = My life. Cory = My life. I tell him MOSTLY EVERYTHING. I don't know why. I spill my heart out to him. Everything. He brightens up my day. As best friends we are, I can't get myself to tell him one thing. One thing that ONLY Cassie knows. I thinks it's obvious. Which reminds me, I have to tell him something tomorrow. It is SO hard to pour out a life story. You people don't even know. =(
I used to read SO much and now I barely have any time to do so. I don't know if I have a life? I don't even know what I do when I come home from school. This sucks.
I used to watch tv shows and movies yeah, I kinda stopped watching movies online and there are just TOO many movies I want to watch so that is gone.
I liked cooking and baking and I still do that except I use everything up so my mom refuses to go out and buy things.
I guess I am only left with my blog then. Don't get me wrong I do hang out with friends but not as much as I used too. Its summer soon and their sports have started so there go out plans.
The again, I always have my music. Music = My life. Cory = My life. I tell him MOSTLY EVERYTHING. I don't know why. I spill my heart out to him. Everything. He brightens up my day. As best friends we are, I can't get myself to tell him one thing. One thing that ONLY Cassie knows. I thinks it's obvious. Which reminds me, I have to tell him something tomorrow. It is SO hard to pour out a life story. You people don't even know. =(
Life Goes On
You become upset about what someone did.
Then you blame it on you.
You say that no one cares.
Oh quite the contrary.
There is always someone who cares.
You know that person too.
Talk about your problems or write them down.
If you are brought down, don't bring anyone else down either.
You know you are special and unique.
Don't down yourself.
Or others.
Don't be upset about something stupid.
Cause someday you'll forget.
AND YOU KNOW THAT LIFE GOES ON!!!
- By ME!!!
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I LOVE giving advice so I did this to kind of show what I think sometimes when I need someone here! <3
Then you blame it on you.
You say that no one cares.
Oh quite the contrary.
There is always someone who cares.
You know that person too.
Talk about your problems or write them down.
If you are brought down, don't bring anyone else down either.
You know you are special and unique.
Don't down yourself.
Or others.
Don't be upset about something stupid.
Cause someday you'll forget.
AND YOU KNOW THAT LIFE GOES ON!!!
- By ME!!!
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I LOVE giving advice so I did this to kind of show what I think sometimes when I need someone here! <3
All I Need To Make Me Happy
Everything that makes my day and me happy: (no order)
1. That 70s Show
2. Seeing my friends
3. Books
4. Cassie
5. Nahida
6. Talking on the phone
7. Degrassi
8. My family
9. Cory
10. My phone
11. My computer
12. CAKE
13. COOKIES
14. BROWNIES
15. Being poked
16. Laughing
17. Shoes
18. Icecream
19. Tea
20. Coffee
21. Music
22. My ipod
23. Steven
24. Peter
25. Chris
26. My pool
27. MY LIFE
1. That 70s Show
2. Seeing my friends
3. Books
4. Cassie
5. Nahida
6. Talking on the phone
7. Degrassi
8. My family
9. Cory
10. My phone
11. My computer
12. CAKE
13. COOKIES
14. BROWNIES
15. Being poked
16. Laughing
17. Shoes
18. Icecream
19. Tea
20. Coffee
21. Music
22. My ipod
23. Steven
24. Peter
25. Chris
26. My pool
27. MY LIFE
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Meaning
“Maybe life is random
No fate. No God. Just time.
The concept of God escapes
me. Some all-powerful being,
who rules sometimes gently,
And often not so, all in the name
Of love? Who dreamed that up?
I see people who really believe
In God, in hope, in charity.
Mostly, they look pretty happy
And, on the surface, satisfied.
Christian. Like Christ. So why
Are so many Christians unlike him?
We don’t go to church, but in
My search for personal answers,
I have explored the Bible some.
(Weird, I know, but when you
Get no answers at all, you reach.)
The Old Testament is scary,
Filled with misery. That God
Was pretty creepy, all in all.
But Christ’s testament asks
For patience, harmony. Not war,
Nor ostracism. Not hate crimes, lies,
Or offering plates filled to the brim.
I wonder if there’s really a place
In heaven for hypocrites
Who preach love, all the while
Kicking the downtrodden.
Still, I might have bought into
The essence of Christ, except,
According to the scriptures, he
Also asked for understanding
And forgiveness, even of our
Enemies. And if he really expected
That, I could not pass muster.
Some people I’ll never forgive.”
- Ellen Hopkins
This is an excerpt from on of my favorite books by Ellen Hopkins. This is what I feel like life sometimes is. Ellen Hopkins is one of my favorite people. She knows how to put life into words. It's real alright!
No fate. No God. Just time.
The concept of God escapes
me. Some all-powerful being,
who rules sometimes gently,
And often not so, all in the name
Of love? Who dreamed that up?
I see people who really believe
In God, in hope, in charity.
Mostly, they look pretty happy
And, on the surface, satisfied.
Christian. Like Christ. So why
Are so many Christians unlike him?
We don’t go to church, but in
My search for personal answers,
I have explored the Bible some.
(Weird, I know, but when you
Get no answers at all, you reach.)
The Old Testament is scary,
Filled with misery. That God
Was pretty creepy, all in all.
But Christ’s testament asks
For patience, harmony. Not war,
Nor ostracism. Not hate crimes, lies,
Or offering plates filled to the brim.
I wonder if there’s really a place
In heaven for hypocrites
Who preach love, all the while
Kicking the downtrodden.
Still, I might have bought into
The essence of Christ, except,
According to the scriptures, he
Also asked for understanding
And forgiveness, even of our
Enemies. And if he really expected
That, I could not pass muster.
Some people I’ll never forgive.”
- Ellen Hopkins
This is an excerpt from on of my favorite books by Ellen Hopkins. This is what I feel like life sometimes is. Ellen Hopkins is one of my favorite people. She knows how to put life into words. It's real alright!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Oh My God
I was talking with my close friend online, and my door was open. I told her somethings about my boyfriend and my ex. My parents know, about my boyfriend but they don't know anything that we do or done and they don't know ANYTHING about my ex. It's not like my boyfriend and I do bad things, I just don't like telling my parents. It's weird. But thats just me.
So, I was telling my friend a couple of things that I can tell my her, but I don't feel comfortable telling my mom. So I told her pretty much told her what happened today. My mom comes into my room right when my friend tells me something about this kid and my friend. I quickly minimize my screen and turn around. My mom says I thought you where doing homework and I was like I am and I pointed to the screen. So my mom comes up and looks. Then she seems that I have my messages on the bottom and asks what that is. I am like a conversation between my friend and I.
My mom is silent and they asks to see it. My jaw drops and I am like no please, it has MY FRIENDS secrete. She insists to look and I keep begging not for her. She moves my hand and looks at the messages. She reads out loud what I wrote about my boyfriend and looks at me, and says how come you never tell me anything about your boyfriend. I stutter and she continues reading about me ex. Then she looks at me and is like who is he and I am like my ex-friend. She goes like oh not your friend anymore and I say yes. She closes the chat box and says next time for me not to be so embarrassed cause she will never yell at me for anyone else's actions. She leaves.
THE THING MY BOYFRIEND DID WAS LIFT ME UP THE SECOND SCHOOL ENDED KISS ME PUT ME DOWNA AND HUG ME. I felt uncomfortable telling her that. =/
So, I was telling my friend a couple of things that I can tell my her, but I don't feel comfortable telling my mom. So I told her pretty much told her what happened today. My mom comes into my room right when my friend tells me something about this kid and my friend. I quickly minimize my screen and turn around. My mom says I thought you where doing homework and I was like I am and I pointed to the screen. So my mom comes up and looks. Then she seems that I have my messages on the bottom and asks what that is. I am like a conversation between my friend and I.
My mom is silent and they asks to see it. My jaw drops and I am like no please, it has MY FRIENDS secrete. She insists to look and I keep begging not for her. She moves my hand and looks at the messages. She reads out loud what I wrote about my boyfriend and looks at me, and says how come you never tell me anything about your boyfriend. I stutter and she continues reading about me ex. Then she looks at me and is like who is he and I am like my ex-friend. She goes like oh not your friend anymore and I say yes. She closes the chat box and says next time for me not to be so embarrassed cause she will never yell at me for anyone else's actions. She leaves.
THE THING MY BOYFRIEND DID WAS LIFT ME UP THE SECOND SCHOOL ENDED KISS ME PUT ME DOWNA AND HUG ME. I felt uncomfortable telling her that. =/
Lets See
Wow. Thats all I have to say for my weekend. I LOVED it. I can't wait for FRIDAYS SATURDAYS AND SUNDAYS.
I hate homework. Yes, I do. I can't wait for the summer. Only 2 more months of school. I should be doing homework, but I can't start it. I have a horrible head ache right now. Grrrr!!!!!
I hate homework. Yes, I do. I can't wait for the summer. Only 2 more months of school. I should be doing homework, but I can't start it. I have a horrible head ache right now. Grrrr!!!!!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
I Love.....
I didn't want to do anything today, but I guess I am. I just got acrylic nails and they they look amazing. I love them.
I decided to make a list of the things I Love (no necessary order) This are just everything that has a place in my heart!
1. my baby brother Timmy
2. my brother Gabriel
3. my mom
4. my dad
5. my cousin Vicka
6. jeans
7. Black Lab
8. Big Time Rush
9. my friend Cassie
10. my friend Nahida
11. my friend Brandon
12. tea
13. my friend Kalia
14. Brokencyde
15. Kiss
16. books
17. summer
18. rock bands
19. my ipod
20. high heels
21. my friend Peter
22. rest of my family
23. salt and vinegar chips
24. movies
25. computer
26. my friend Cory
27. The Vampire Diaries
28. Degrassi
29. Supernatural
THESE ARE NOT ALL THE THINGS IN MY HEART BUT THESE ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT!!!!!
I decided to make a list of the things I Love (no necessary order) This are just everything that has a place in my heart!
1. my baby brother Timmy
2. my brother Gabriel
3. my mom
4. my dad
5. my cousin Vicka
6. jeans
7. Black Lab
8. Big Time Rush
9. my friend Cassie
10. my friend Nahida
11. my friend Brandon
12. tea
13. my friend Kalia
14. Brokencyde
15. Kiss
16. books
17. summer
18. rock bands
19. my ipod
20. high heels
21. my friend Peter
22. rest of my family
23. salt and vinegar chips
24. movies
25. computer
26. my friend Cory
27. The Vampire Diaries
28. Degrassi
29. Supernatural
THESE ARE NOT ALL THE THINGS IN MY HEART BUT THESE ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT!!!!!
Friday, April 16, 2010
What I Live By
This is basically the speech/song I live by:
Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '97... wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are NOT as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance. Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '97... wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are NOT as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance. Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Fist Pump
WOOOOOOOO!!!! I am getting my ears pierced. Well, I have had my first hole as a baby but I am going to get my second hole in both. Then, I am going to get my third on my left ear and my midway on my right. While doing that I might possibly get my belly button! Fist Pumping!
Just thought I'd share that! =D
Just thought I'd share that! =D
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Let Me Just Say.......
Ugh, I need to get new friends. It's not that I am tired of them or anything, I just want that perfect one friend that I can tell ANYTHING too. One that would take a bullet for me. Well, yes I already have 2 of those friends but like someone that I can tell anything to. See, my 2 friends one knows something the other doesn't. And right now, you are like "WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?"
I can't tell one of them something so I tell the other one, but when I can't tell the other one I tell the one. Confusing? Whatever.
Anyway, it's not like I don't have friends. I do. But I want a friend that is always aloud to come over and is always here and can talk to me, and I can talk back.
I don't care if it is a guy or a girl. Cause I have a guy friend that I tell things to. He understands me. No he is not gay. Everyone thinks that when a guy is a good friend he is gay. Well not really.
Yeah, I don't know guess thats pretty much it for now. =D
I can't tell one of them something so I tell the other one, but when I can't tell the other one I tell the one. Confusing? Whatever.
Anyway, it's not like I don't have friends. I do. But I want a friend that is always aloud to come over and is always here and can talk to me, and I can talk back.
I don't care if it is a guy or a girl. Cause I have a guy friend that I tell things to. He understands me. No he is not gay. Everyone thinks that when a guy is a good friend he is gay. Well not really.
Yeah, I don't know guess thats pretty much it for now. =D
A Funny Way To Put This
Yeah,I couldn't take it. I made this blog for complaining and talking about my life. Don't read it if you don't want to. No one is asking you.
FIRSTLY, fyi no I don't go around complaining about my life. Actually I am very happy with it. I could have parents that are divorced. (Knock on wood.) But they aren't. I could have family issues but I don't. I could be a transvestite, but I am not either. So, keep those awful, rude comments to yourself.
All, I want to do is just write about my day, and such. I find it quite interesting. Plus, I won't have to do this daily, cause not all days are fun.
I don't know what to write here now. Like I care!
FIRSTLY, fyi no I don't go around complaining about my life. Actually I am very happy with it. I could have parents that are divorced. (Knock on wood.) But they aren't. I could have family issues but I don't. I could be a transvestite, but I am not either. So, keep those awful, rude comments to yourself.
All, I want to do is just write about my day, and such. I find it quite interesting. Plus, I won't have to do this daily, cause not all days are fun.
I don't know what to write here now. Like I care!
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