Disco

Chances are I pretty much care about 20 people in the world.
They know who they are.
My other friends are just friends.
And then there is the people who I just talk to.
But it doesn't matter who they are.
I worry about my best friends problems.
I try to help out as much as I can.
I give advice.
Backstab me, and I'll beat the LIVING SHIT out of you.
Don't talk about my friends.
I'll get you for that.
I see through me eyes
And hear through my ears.
Don't need a boyfriend to make me happy.
Boy or none, I am the way I am.
I don't change for anyone.
I wake up in the morning.
I go to sleep at night.
I think differently about things.
I will tell you the truth to your face.
IF you WANT to hear it.
If you tell on people, you know only lies.
That's the way I roll.
Right and the wrong.
You choose.
I party.
And that matters why?
I have a motto.
Would you like to know?
Then ask.
What is today?
Thursday - Vampire Diaries.
Tacos!
I know when you lie.
Very easy to tell.
No one hides a lie.
And when you lie, you do something.
Thats how I know.
I confused you there.?.!
Well, good.
And I probably have a bigger heart then most people do.
Talk to mehh.
Get to know mehh.
I have plenty people in my life.
Few more won't hurt.
Holy shit.
I was just scared.
By a bird too.
Lmfaooooo.
Talking on oovoo right now.
Ightt!!! Byes

Forgive

Fall seven times, get up eight.

- Japanese Proverb


Forgive is a really big word. Half of this dumb world doesn't know what it means. Honestly, to forgive someone for something they did that HURT you is tough.

For those silly stupid girls and boys who never forgive their friends for going out with their ex- girlfriend or boyfriend, face it, YOU ARE STUPID.

I am talking about if you brother or sister or family member or someone real close to you dies because someone shot them. And then, while on trial the shooter apologizes, of course you will never forgive the person. You may try to forget but you will never forgive. No matter what saying like Forgive And Forget, to forgive something like that is technically impossible. Trust me, you can't really hate your family unless, your family hates you, or doesn't want you, or blames you, or abuses you. Then you have every right to be against them.

Behavior

Today, my communication arts teacher made a good point. We were talking about juvenile delinquents. Some of them come from painful pasts. For example: (this is A MADE UP STORY) John's mom left his dad and blamed John. Or John's mom died or something like this. John might be the boy who takes in everything. He starts to take his anger out on other people, and almost kills a person. This is what I mean. Mostly parents mess up their kids. But not all the time, some kids can just hang out with the wrong people and get mixed up. Other kids might have the most nicest parents but are still bugged.

I am going on a tour to a jail. I am so excited. I am going to the one on Randell's Island. I will post about that.

It kills to see people like this.

Screw This

I have no more words. Gosh, you people don't know how to close your mouths. Don't make fun of another person. Look under your own nose. Yes, people are not perfect. Some have terrible childhoods. Some have horrible pasts. NO ONE IS PERFECT. People have parents that fight. This causes the child to get involved and down themselves. They say it is all their fault. These kids start to cut, do drugs, drink alcohol. They lose themselves. NEVER MAKE FUN OF A PERSON LIKE THIS.

Most likely, you DON'T know what the person is going through, so don't judge them. I would give anything to talk to someone with these problems and help. People like this don't deserve to be like this. I COMPLETELY understand if a child hurts themselves for a reason. If you do it to be cool, FACE IT you are an ASS. No doubt about that.

Guys it's time to realize the world is not perfect. And will never be. You are in charge of yourself. Don't let anyone stop you from reaching your goal. Prove them wrong! Achieve your dream. Make friends that are going through the same and help each other out. If you need a vacation leave everything behind for a few days. I would do it to. Take your most loved with you.


I noticed that if you try to be nice to ugly kids they are pretty mean. Yeah, now I am NEVER talking to someone like that.

Alice

Can't get her head straight.
Or out of the clouds.
Tries to be cheerful.
And not to take her anger out on other people.
Creative.
Loves technology.
And children.
Still color's and draws.
Feel's like a child.
Is mature.
Doesn't believe the world is heading for hell.
Confident.
Loud.
Very outspoken and sarcastic.
Cautious.
Know too much for my own good.
I love a good book.
Brutally honest.
Involved in school.
Have a lot of friends.
I've grown up.
I know right from wrong.
Im independent.
I know who I am, and truthfully, I only care about the opinions of people who matter. If you dont like me, you don't matter.
Loves music.
Hates people who don't know how to stick up for themselves.
And hates people who can't open their mouth.
Hates tattletales.
And people who stare.
And people who are jealous.
Loves people who know how to protect others.
Loves piercing's.
Wants to travel to every state.
Will be by your side when you need me.
Talk's to random people online.
Has a voice in the back of head.
Wants TOO much.
Asks for a lot.
Will be a great mom.
Green.
Music.
Books.
Movies.
Pretty much lost.
Hyper.
Pills.
And food.
Mostly CAKE and Chocolate.
AND SWEETS.
On a road.
Is really scared to death at this second.
Has secrets.
Not perfect.
Loves Tea.
Wants a dog.
Is getting one.
Guess what?
Chicken butt.
Laughs.
Has been told I LOVE YOU by a guy.
Told a guy I LOVE YOU.
Kissed a guy before.
Can't dance.
But likes to dance.
FML sometimes.
Knows I am special.
Will stick up for others.
Will curse you out and punch you if you say something that pisses me off.
HUGE FLIRT.
LOVES SUMMER.
AND NOVEMBER.
PLUS THE RAIN.
AND THE SUN.
Likes math.
And hugs.
And balloons.
Likes sunglasses.
Is unique.
Is tired of doing the same thing.
Still has those CHILDISH FEARS.
Tries something new everyday.
Wishes the day was longer.
Holds hands.
Can go on for millions of years.
Doesn't know where to stop.
Likes to slow dance.
Smart.
Cooks.
Screams.
Has feelings.
Alice is Alice.

MAIN THINGS: What I Want (In the future)

1. 4 kids
2. become a pedestrian
3. amazing/caring husband
4. get marries at 23
5. fall in love
6. be successful
7. nice house
8. publish a book
9. my own library
10. for people to stop taking my opinions
11. piercings
12. meet a few people (DUH not for you to know- look at #10)
13. go skydiving
14. tell HIM I like him
15. have an open crib night <3

Real eyes. Realize. Real Lies.

Before I say anything I wrote a letter to MONDAY on my FOR PURPLE blog!
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Ugh, everything changes. People find new obsessions. New goals. New friends. New crushes. New lives. And become something that the feared of becoming. Something that they said they would never ever be/do. Please keep your word for what you say.

Thats that. It's just some people say I'll never touch a cigarette in my life. Now they are somewhere is a hospital crying because they found out they have lung cancer. Some news for them: Did you expect to have nine lives?

Not that this has ever happened to me or my friends, just warning you. CHANGING is one issue I look deeply into. Once you dare yourself the privilege of a hardcore badass gang, or do something they said would be SOOOOOOOO cool, you are most likely to do it again. AND FROM THEN ON YOU are SCREWED. "She tried to killers Get none Baby, your just to jaded now....." --- lyrics from one of my favorite songs. Matches. Yes it does. I likes it!!!!

How I Spent Money!

I recently came back from a few stores. My dad gave me 200 to go to the mall with my friends. I ended up spending it all, on 5 pairs of shoes and clothes. Later my dad picked me up and said we need to go to best buy. NOW BOTH MY DAD AND I LOVE MUSIC. I didn't know why we needed to go but, I went anyway. We spent over 2 hours looking for music. At first my dad said that I could only spent 50 bucks and he gets to spent 50. I was like okay. Yeah, we ended up spending about 200 on music. We bought so MANY CD'S. Yeah, any that I wanted and any he wanted. I love my daddy! =)

Music

❒Single ❒Taken ✔Pimpin
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Music is my life.
Music is me.
Music is adventure.
Music is happiness.
Music is cool.
Music is amazing.
Music is mine.
Music is the best.
Music loves me.
Music never brings me down.
Music cheers up my day.
Music has it's ups.
Music plays everyday.
I LOVE music!!!

A Long Lost Story

THIS IS SOMETHING I WROTE!!!! and I'm proud about that!


The cut on my wrist must show you the evidence.
The evidence of the pain I go through.
I don't know anything anymore.
It's fading.
Swirling me around.
I see the next day in my dream.
So hard to explain.
The images.
The sounds.
The words.
Numb.
Can't take the pain of the cold metal on my skin.
I press harder.
Goes in deeper.
Right into my main artery.
Blood seeps out.
I start to laugh.
I start to dance.
Pain.
Gone.
Crashing.
I see the ocean waves.
I start to slow.
The waves grow blurry.
I get scared.
I see a light.
Truth.
Around the light is black.
I start faltering.
My knees give out.
I start to fall.
I hear children playing.
I giggle.
I lose my full balance.
I feel the cold floor.
My eyes close.
I smile.
I am in my place.
I let go of this place.
Not my home.
But I grab the light.
And I'm off on my adventure!

My LIFE in a story

Chances are that, I am one of a kind.
Always smile's when I see the right person.
Cry's over mistakes.
Cry's over movies.
And tv shows.
And sad and happy things.
Over mostly everything that is worth crying for.
Screw that, I cry over pretty much everything except guys.
Why would I do that?
Cause I am pimping.
Riding Solo.
Hell YEAH.
So, I'll be there with you.
Amazing right.
Posts blogs.
And has a CRAZY thing for HOT bad ass's.
Yes you know who you are.
I like cake. A lot.
I just sneezed. - Bless me. =P
Thanks for the bless.
I <3 people.
And will always.
I AM A PROUD SUPPORTER OF THE GAY'S, LESBO'S, AND DRAG'S AND TRANSVESTITES.
THERE IS NO RESAON TO HATE THEM.
Life is funny.
Not all the time.
Be prepared for the worst and the best.
Be the best and the boss. Life is short.
Do things you will always be proud of.
Don't let anyone stop you.
Don't hate. Create.
I think in a different way then you, so don't copy me. I'll HATE U!!!!!
Have a personality and don't be scared.
I'll tell you the truth of what I think of you! I am not terrified.
Who Cares?
I Do!
I said the 2 words.
AND GUESS WHAT THAT MEANS..........
EVERYTHING I NEED!!!!!!

Life or None? =/

I can't find anything that interests me anymore. Ugh, that is sad. =(
I used to read SO much and now I barely have any time to do so. I don't know if I have a life? I don't even know what I do when I come home from school. This sucks.
I used to watch tv shows and movies yeah, I kinda stopped watching movies online and there are just TOO many movies I want to watch so that is gone.
I liked cooking and baking and I still do that except I use everything up so my mom refuses to go out and buy things.
I guess I am only left with my blog then. Don't get me wrong I do hang out with friends but not as much as I used too. Its summer soon and their sports have started so there go out plans.

The again, I always have my music. Music = My life. Cory = My life. I tell him MOSTLY EVERYTHING. I don't know why. I spill my heart out to him. Everything. He brightens up my day. As best friends we are, I can't get myself to tell him one thing. One thing that ONLY Cassie knows. I thinks it's obvious. Which reminds me, I have to tell him something tomorrow. It is SO hard to pour out a life story. You people don't even know. =(

Life Goes On

You become upset about what someone did.
Then you blame it on you.
You say that no one cares.
Oh quite the contrary.
There is always someone who cares.
You know that person too.
Talk about your problems or write them down.
If you are brought down, don't bring anyone else down either.
You know you are special and unique.
Don't down yourself.
Or others.
Don't be upset about something stupid.
Cause someday you'll forget.
AND YOU KNOW THAT LIFE GOES ON!!!
- By ME!!!

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I LOVE giving advice so I did this to kind of show what I think sometimes when I need someone here! <3

All I Need To Make Me Happy

Everything that makes my day and me happy: (no order)

1. That 70s Show
2. Seeing my friends
3. Books
4. Cassie
5. Nahida
6. Talking on the phone
7. Degrassi
8. My family
9. Cory
10. My phone
11. My computer
12. CAKE
13. COOKIES
14. BROWNIES
15. Being poked
16. Laughing
17. Shoes
18. Icecream
19. Tea
20. Coffee
21. Music
22. My ipod
23. Steven
24. Peter
25. Chris
26. My pool
27. MY LIFE

Meaning

“Maybe life is random

No fate. No God. Just time.
The concept of God escapes

me. Some all-powerful being,
who rules sometimes gently,

And often not so, all in the name
Of love? Who dreamed that up?

I see people who really believe
In God, in hope, in charity.

Mostly, they look pretty happy
And, on the surface, satisfied.

Christian. Like Christ. So why
Are so many Christians unlike him?

We don’t go to church, but in
My search for personal answers,

I have explored the Bible some.
(Weird, I know, but when you

Get no answers at all, you reach.)
The Old Testament is scary,

Filled with misery. That God
Was pretty creepy, all in all.

But Christ’s testament asks
For patience, harmony. Not war,

Nor ostracism. Not hate crimes, lies,
Or offering plates filled to the brim.

I wonder if there’s really a place
In heaven for hypocrites

Who preach love, all the while
Kicking the downtrodden.

Still, I might have bought into
The essence of Christ, except,

According to the scriptures, he
Also asked for understanding

And forgiveness, even of our
Enemies. And if he really expected

That, I could not pass muster.
Some people I’ll never forgive.”

- Ellen Hopkins

This is an excerpt from on of my favorite books by Ellen Hopkins. This is what I feel like life sometimes is. Ellen Hopkins is one of my favorite people. She knows how to put life into words. It's real alright!

Oh My God

I was talking with my close friend online, and my door was open. I told her somethings about my boyfriend and my ex. My parents know, about my boyfriend but they don't know anything that we do or done and they don't know ANYTHING about my ex. It's not like my boyfriend and I do bad things, I just don't like telling my parents. It's weird. But thats just me.

So, I was telling my friend a couple of things that I can tell my her, but I don't feel comfortable telling my mom. So I told her pretty much told her what happened today. My mom comes into my room right when my friend tells me something about this kid and my friend. I quickly minimize my screen and turn around. My mom says I thought you where doing homework and I was like I am and I pointed to the screen. So my mom comes up and looks. Then she seems that I have my messages on the bottom and asks what that is. I am like a conversation between my friend and I.

My mom is silent and they asks to see it. My jaw drops and I am like no please, it has MY FRIENDS secrete. She insists to look and I keep begging not for her. She moves my hand and looks at the messages. She reads out loud what I wrote about my boyfriend and looks at me, and says how come you never tell me anything about your boyfriend. I stutter and she continues reading about me ex. Then she looks at me and is like who is he and I am like my ex-friend. She goes like oh not your friend anymore and I say yes. She closes the chat box and says next time for me not to be so embarrassed cause she will never yell at me for anyone else's actions. She leaves.

THE THING MY BOYFRIEND DID WAS LIFT ME UP THE SECOND SCHOOL ENDED KISS ME PUT ME DOWNA AND HUG ME. I felt uncomfortable telling her that. =/

Lets See

Wow. Thats all I have to say for my weekend. I LOVED it. I can't wait for FRIDAYS SATURDAYS AND SUNDAYS.

I hate homework. Yes, I do. I can't wait for the summer. Only 2 more months of school. I should be doing homework, but I can't start it. I have a horrible head ache right now. Grrrr!!!!!

I Love.....

I didn't want to do anything today, but I guess I am. I just got acrylic nails and they they look amazing. I love them.

I decided to make a list of the things I Love (no necessary order) This are just everything that has a place in my heart!

1. my baby brother Timmy
2. my brother Gabriel
3. my mom
4. my dad
5. my cousin Vicka
6. jeans
7. Black Lab
8. Big Time Rush
9. my friend Cassie
10. my friend Nahida
11. my friend Brandon
12. tea
13. my friend Kalia
14. Brokencyde
15. Kiss
16. books
17. summer
18. rock bands
19. my ipod
20. high heels
21. my friend Peter
22. rest of my family
23. salt and vinegar chips
24. movies
25. computer
26. my friend Cory
27. The Vampire Diaries
28. Degrassi
29. Supernatural

THESE ARE NOT ALL THE THINGS IN MY HEART BUT THESE ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT!!!!!

What I Live By

This is basically the speech/song I live by:


Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '97... wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT.

The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.

I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.

You are NOT as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance. Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

Fist Pump

WOOOOOOOO!!!! I am getting my ears pierced. Well, I have had my first hole as a baby but I am going to get my second hole in both. Then, I am going to get my third on my left ear and my midway on my right. While doing that I might possibly get my belly button! Fist Pumping!

Just thought I'd share that! =D

Let Me Just Say.......

Ugh, I need to get new friends. It's not that I am tired of them or anything, I just want that perfect one friend that I can tell ANYTHING too. One that would take a bullet for me. Well, yes I already have 2 of those friends but like someone that I can tell anything to. See, my 2 friends one knows something the other doesn't. And right now, you are like "WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?"

I can't tell one of them something so I tell the other one, but when I can't tell the other one I tell the one. Confusing? Whatever.

Anyway, it's not like I don't have friends. I do. But I want a friend that is always aloud to come over and is always here and can talk to me, and I can talk back.

I don't care if it is a guy or a girl. Cause I have a guy friend that I tell things to. He understands me. No he is not gay. Everyone thinks that when a guy is a good friend he is gay. Well not really.

Yeah, I don't know guess thats pretty much it for now. =D

A Funny Way To Put This

Yeah,I couldn't take it. I made this blog for complaining and talking about my life. Don't read it if you don't want to. No one is asking you.

FIRSTLY, fyi no I don't go around complaining about my life. Actually I am very happy with it. I could have parents that are divorced. (Knock on wood.) But they aren't. I could have family issues but I don't. I could be a transvestite, but I am not either. So, keep those awful, rude comments to yourself.

All, I want to do is just write about my day, and such. I find it quite interesting. Plus, I won't have to do this daily, cause not all days are fun.

I don't know what to write here now. Like I care!